Finishing line

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Another 2 hours before I can have the last sheet of my calendar hanging. The end of the 2011 approaching so fast, as if it can't wait to see all the living things grow older. Thinking about what I did in the past, I am not really sure which part that I should be proud at, might be traveling? hurm, fair enough, nothing more than adding photos in the collections, strike a few more place names in my target list, and last but no least a lil bit of patience in handling unpredictable challenges in life. Insya-Allah, if I were to be left alone in unknown place, I would rather seek for help before shedding tears.. possibly. When it comes to taking risk, I think I had much improvement in that sense. Firmer belief that the obstacles can be faced head-on.. ^^

Capturing the changes of sky in Portsmouth in less then 10 minutes. Subhanallah..

Truly, I really enjoyed 2011 due to so much imposing things happened not only to me, but people who are significant in my life. Stories that hurt, stories than hard to be forgotten, stories that brought about changes, all complete just like assorted candy mix. Some might have horrible taste but that's what make up a slightly more expensive pack. Not quite sure what's gonna inspire me in 2012. The most sensational moment might be the middle of next year, the moment when I have to pull my bag and leave Portsmouth forever. There's no expectation, but what comes in my prayer everyday is for my study in Portsmouth Uni to be ended successfully, then I can go back to go through the remaining bits left in Malaysia. As maturity brings more affairs, definitely, 2012 is going to lead me through complex route. One thing that we must always believe, what has been planned by Allah is always the best for us.

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year

Enjoy the new cycle, savour every moment,

and may the fresh transition will be a turning point for stronger iman and taqwa

Kids Versus Adults

Last night a not-so-funny incident happened. It was all started with Miss A who took Miss B's iPhone without permission, hacked her FB account and eventually posted unnecessary stuff that you can ever imagine- cheap status such as [I'm cute, Am I cute? I feel cute, and such and such]- I wasn't quite sure because I was away from that scene. Miss B who happened to be the victim was pissed off and uttered this one sentence which I think absolutely reasonable.

"Wei xpayah la nak bergurau macam ni,,kita dah besar ok!"

Of course I have no objection about this matter. We are adults, and for that reason we have to act accordingly. It is quite hard to control our attitude at some points, sometimes we enjoy being childlike whilst others might regard is as no-no. I think this could be a good example of shibboleth- personality wise the decision of how to act is capricious. You must know your audience, time and at the same time be clever to expect certain possible outcomes. Reaction of other people is unpredictable, but we still can control ourselves, can't we? No matter what, I feel sorry for Miss A too but it's a good lesson though =_=''

Off topic !! Just had half the perfect dinner and I saw this on facebook. Uploading Krispy Kreme donut menu list on facebook when winter is about to begin can be the most evil thing that a man can ever do...!! Can somebody order 1 chocolate iced creme filled and deliver it to my room?? :D

Enjoy your winter
Don't get bigger

Fantasy

Main entrance

Ummi and Tazi in front of the newly launched Christmas tree

night view of the Sleeping Beauty's castle

Bubble snow..weeeeee

What is so wonderful about Disneyland? It is a magical world that can turn your heart to a little child's.

 I am so thankful for the pre-Christmas experience at Disneyland. If human's creation can be so beautiful, how the paradise will be like? 

“Verily, the dwellers of Paradise, that Day, will be busy in joyful things” [Yaa-Seen 36:55]

Subhanallah. Not everything is perfect at Disneyland. I still experienced stressful moment for 2 hours queue time, inconsiderate smokers, insane people cutting in lines, hunger, tiresome, and so on. Plus, the ticket has the time limit. The shining lights in the park will be off at 10pm and visitors have no other choice but to go back to where they come from. 

but..

In paradise, what we will have is an enjoyment that has no end.

May Allah bless us with the highest Firdaus.

Praise be to Allaah the Lord of the Worlds. 

Rasulullah..I wanna see you

The more I..

read

hear

think

about Rasulullah,

the higher is my admiration..

My 11.11.11

If I could make the earth reversing its spin, I would have done so. Yesterday's date was perfect after 9.9.99. Well, it depends on how you justify the date. It could be the sequence such as 9.10.11 or 10.10.10, yet i still find this one is more meaningful. Can we request for year light saver to select nice dates and make it last for at least two days? Sometimes I just can be so silly for nothing important. Being overwhelmingly intrigued by the date, came to my mind was the dream to  watch something extravagant, something that surpassing the usual events so that this date can be remembered. Fairly enough, I got a 'tender' from my friends to cook 12kg of beef for his Nasi Kerabu stall. It took 2 of my precious days, turning my house to smell like cattle ranching ares, swelling of my right hand and yellowish nails. Mama will surely be proud if she could see it. Okay, that is the end of my daging bakar business story.

Alongside all the steaks, sweat and heat, I realized that there were a few incidents that almost similar to one another. I became a third person between lovebirds at three different times which had gradually driven me to a moment of passion upon seeing their love and care. Scene 1- in my friend's room. She was extremely excited to show me an expensive make up set which was a gift from her boyfriend and he was actually in that room too. When she said "thank you sayang", her partner simply replied with a smile. Scene 2- on the street. My other friend and her boyfriend plus me as the third person were on our way back from our friend's house after delivering all the daging bakar. We were chitchatting and suddenly the marriage topic was brought up, and the boyfriend said "nak kahwin tapi ___ hok x ready..haha". The girl was just smile, perhaps with her hearts filled with colourful tulips. Scene 3- at my friend's house, my two other friends who are also in a relationship were cooking in the kitchen. The incident was when she tried to turn the fried fritters, the fat suddenly splashed  to her hand, and her boyfriend who happens to be so protective by nature was panic and offered to take toothpaste to relieve the pain. In an atmosphere reminiscent of  Korean dramas, I could sense their love all around in every single moment together. I know that there's no such thing as a permitted relationship before marriage in Islam. A pure relationship is totally an imagination. We all know and aware about this but I just cannot stop from sharing the happiness for my girl friends who are blessed to meet a guy who is really care of them. To be loved is a gift. It is a rahmah. Not everyone can experience it. May Allah forgive me for not feeling angry or being sensitive. Secondly, may Allah protect their relationship and make it end with marriage. Thirdly, may Allah will not bring me to a state where I have got to roll a dice and never get a chance to think twice.

Goodbye my triple elevens =)

Makan budak

 Monday 5.45pm- maghrib yang hening

Knock knock!!
Someone knocked at the door as I was finishing the remaining of bread pudding after breaking fast. Wait, who might the person be?at this hour? Is he someone next door? xkan lah.Aspek kerukunan ketetanggaan is never being practiced here. =D
Then I opened the door. Bismillah..

Came on the scene, these few caterpillar-stage creatures

Cute looking Dark Witch

Daughter of Lil Red Riding Hood + Mambang Tanah

Hercules's sister-in-law, Runaway Bride,..and err...the amateur Ponti Anak Remaja !!?

Yosh!! Today is Halloween Day. How come that I don't remember? In fact I expected scarier action from those kids but they were actually too adorable. Dressed up so much like hantu setan, hantu lampor and many others of its kinds but sheepishly asking for sweets..with so much politeness. hehe. I gave some for them, but there was no intention of appeasing any spirit. It was simply because of the kids. Some of them carried a heavy plastic bag full of candies- a sign of a long walk from door to door. I guess that would be a stock for at least a week, and their parents can cut their budget for sweets supply once a year. [Even though it might have no effect because they will still need to break their piggy bank to invest on the extravagant costumes]. I was so excited in treating them sweets without realizing the rigidness, in a sense that both of my hands will pass the sweets to them. Treat!!as if it was scripted. I should have refused at least once and see how the kids will go about with their tricks to the whole house. They might prepare the tricks in advance if they are visionary enough and consider that the real world is not as lovely as they see. There are stingy people everywhere. [but I guess they might not :D]. I admire "Mat Salleh" kids because at this stage, purity and innocence comes to being- the precious qualities that will soon diminish and transform to being a stinky hangover.

To be honest, if I were 9, I would rather follow them to collect as much candies as I can, than  knuckling down for all my works in such a colourless academia. Wait for me kiddos!! I'll go upstairs and get my mask!!

I had searched on Google about the status of Halloween from Islamic perspective. Not saying that to my surprise, it is  Haraam. Halloween used to be  Pagan festival- celebration of death. So Muslims out there, we are not supposed to participate in Halloween celebration because it is forbidden. We should cling firmly to Sunnah and distance ourselves from being a blind imitator of falsehood. Thank Allah that I am not a permanent resident in Western country because I might dress up my future children too and bring them around the neighborhood for trick or treat. Astaghfirullah...

Another things for us to reflect, why Muslims do not celebrate Halloween?.
Firstly, it is a night of evil. There's no way for us to treat Satan nicely. Satan will forever be our no 1 enemy despite anything.
Secondly, Prophet Mohammed disliked begging. Solution: BE RICH! =)

Happy Diwali

October 26, 2011 was a meaningful day to be remembered. 

For the first time in my life, I celebrated Diwali with my lovely housemates at Hudson Road. Thinking about Deepavali in Malaysia, the day was not more than a day off for me. It was even more boring because most of the TV channels aired Tamil programs- the reason why I persuaded abah many times to install Astro at home. :D Indians were like 'aliens' in my life. I haven't had any Indian friend before I came to IPDA. It is so hard to see Indian in my hometown. Whatever it is, life is a magic. Now I even have a reason to learn spoken Tamil. The significance of cultural knowledge seems greater than before.

Thanks Viki and Kuben for making Deepavali this year a memorable one.We enjoyed Thanks for the delicious curry and sambar too. Ops! I did not spell wrongly.. it was sambar, yes, sambar but not sambaLL. The dishes was superbly nice, some was mild but there was one that made me feel like brushing my tongue.I also was overawed with the amount of garlics, onions and ginger used-pretty much like a huge 'kenduri'. 

Anyway, what I want to point out is from this entry is to appreciate the difference between you and your non-Malay peers and learn about them. I believe that life can be viewed from different angles if you talk to different people...and ultimately love will come from within.

 The concept cannot be any simpler than "With one language you can read so many books, but with two languages you can read even more".

Commitment

16/10/2011- Malaysian Society of Portsmouth Welcoming Event (behind the scene)- see my 112 pieces of roasted chicken =D

I'm back..! =) I was spurred to post this entry because of my excube mate. That was quite a nice thing when you know that there is someone who actually wants to hear something from you, precisely the continuation of my pointless ramble here. Hehe. Thanks for your curiosity and concern Faten. There's nothing to be an excitement in my life at this moment. This is my fourth week in Portsmouth after my heavenly two months of summer break in Malaysia. I'm here again for the remaining 9 months. Don't talk about time again. In a blink I am now a senior among the undergrads. People can now address me Kakak, regardless of my attempt to look cute and young. It has been ages but I've never attained success to look as such..heheh tsk tsk tsk. Life in Year 3 is even harder that what I expect. In fact, I am struggling in managing my dreams within this very short period- to travel, to manage usrah, to join Islamic programs, university trip, to score in exam, to manage activity for the Malaysian Society, to reduce weight, to practice cookery skills, to fulfill my materials demand, this..that.. Ya Allah it's just like you have a small pocket but you want to collect 1kg of Rambutans, am I using the right analogy here? hehe..which means that you have to bear with the risk that some of the Rambutans might fall down. Quite a few times that I digress, I did something unimportant and ignored the one that I should prioritize, and in the end I was left at the losing end. The best example is about the Malaysian Society. I had promised myself not to involve as a committee members anymore during final year due to so much conflict and unsolved issue, yet I still stepped in. I should have tied my head from nodding when I was being nominated last year but there is no use to regret. It is the trust that I value. For usrah, Kak Jannah put her trust in me to run the usrah and represent my batch. My commitment is getting heavier to be shouldered. In spite of all the additional duties, deep inside I believe that it is just a small bit. Life ahead is much more challenging. Therefore, I should be prepared to face all the commitments in the future. Allah has arranged for all of this responsibilities, but He also had compensated me with supportive peers. Alhamdulillah.. Maybe He wants me to be an 'Octopus' this year so that I can make the most and learn more. Anyhow, I am just hoping that I could achieve as much as possible in this final year, without having any plan to fall by the wayside. Amin

Pernah teringat ayat ipi when she was describing my personality "Yuni kan suka komitmen2 ni.."
Nope Ipi..that isn't true..hoho
 Commitments could make one to psyche out ok!  It's all about the voluntary action that is built upon trust of other people... whoever hates responsibility, in other way he denies reality...hihi.teringat line spiderman..not really sure about the accuracy but it is pretty much as "with great power comes greater responsibilities"...fuiyoo even superhero movies pon boleh ada ibrah [pengajaran] =D

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Buat si dia yg entah siapa dan di mana

Sekali dgr je terpaut... (^_^)

Astaghfirullah...jgn lagho...jgn..

Time flies

23:44 19/9/2011
One day left before I have to say goodbye para mi casa. Leaving home this year is much harder than I thought. Mama still does not show any sign of improvement but I know Abah is there to keep her company. If only I could stay longer, I would not think twice. No matter what the reality is what we've got to face. If I keep longing for stability and situation unchanged, then life wont move forward. I wanted to go over Mama, hug her and tell her that she could actually go back to being her old self again. But I couldn't lie, if not to her but at least to my own self.  How fast time flies..this is how my summer break ends...Ya Allah Ya Rahim, I just one for the best for everyone. Keep my family safe here..Biyadikal khair..

Blowing O o O o making you Go

"Best sangat ke merokok ni? Rasa apa kalau smoking?"

If we ask this kind of questions to regular smokers, how will they usually respond? I think the most convincing statement that they are able to provide maybe to maintain their alertness [driving], reducing tense [ amazingly, spending RM10 for a pack of 20 cigarettes does not bring tense] with many other excuses. Rationally thinking, there is no positive reason for consuming cigarettes but till now I keep wondering why people are still spending on that smelly things as if it is an essence of life. Anyway, cigarette was quite an issue that setting my precious final Friday- the day that Ayah Su was arranged to have a surgery to remove his tumor. Early in the morning, we gathered at An Nisa' hospital to accompany Ayah Sun and his wife. Around 2 hours before the operation began,  the other family members chatted about funny stories to make Ayah Su forget about his fear for awhile. It began with abah who came out with discipline problems of his students that he could recall. Turning back to Ayah Su, he admitted that he smoked when he was in secondary school but he said it was secretly done with mounting fear of being spotted by any villagers. The situation was not as worse as what is shown by students nowadays. They are so brave to smoke openly at any stalls, 2 meters away from the school gate. At distance Ayah Su described the food stall near to SMK Gaal appears pretty much like Kedai Bahulu every morning due to mushroom cloud of smoke in the area [Uff suddenly the images of fresh bahulu Bukit Jawa flashing in mind..hehe]. That story burst us into laughter, that's pretty common when Ayah Su opened his mouth and shared things. The most awaiting moment for me and all my cousings in every raya is listening to Ayah Su's stories..

Few minutes later the atmosphere changed, where everyone's vision became blurry and tears began to roll down. As if someone was envied of our merriment, Ayah Su was called by a nurse to get ready for his operation. The 6 hour operation is quite risky because the jaw area has complex vessels and neurons. It requires expertise to ensure that his brain and all senses won't be affected. Nobody could hold their emotion, so did I, especially when Ayah Su said in his prayer, "Seandainya ajal aku menghampiri, aku redha dan bersedia Ya Allah". 

Seeing Ayah Su in the surgical attire was really aching our hearts. It's hard to describe that sorrow moment. I just could not recall whether I've been in such saddening circumstance before. After Ayah su was brought to OT, we went to the ward to do whatever we could, performing solat hajat, reciting prayers and so on. Everyone seemed to hide their real feeling-the truth that only Him knows.

Well, to cut it short, suddenly we received a call from the staff nurse. Guess what? The operation could not be completed because Ayah Su smoked that morning. He said he took cigarettes because he could not bear with the anxious feeling. Yes, he did fast as instructed but he did not expect that the fast should be real (without smoking). The nicotine clogged heart vessels which is unsafe condition for the surgery. The doctors cancelled it in order to downplay the risk and avoiding more serious complications to the heart. Ayah Su has to endure the pain on his face longer. The doctors asked him to quit smoking for his heart condition to be absolutely stable.

I despise cigarette. Enough said.

*******

 “...he [the Prophet] commands them what is just, and forbids them what is evil; he allows them as lawful what is good, and prohibits them from what is bad..." (Qur'an 7:157).

kuci-kuci pampers hei

What makes this year's Syawal a lot different? The answer is one-babies and kids! Ho yeah!! Those babies were the most wonderful source of joy and merriment. They were the center of attraction, really. 2011- abah has 7 grandchildren. Another one will soon join those kiddies in the nearest time. Subhanallah..

1. Nur Elleya Syazwin 8 yrs old
Wah..this cucu sulung is growing up with stunning supermodel feature.Her obsession in pinky and girlish stuffs seems to be more obvious as times goes by. And also.. fan of Justin Bieber [erkk..]. Plus, her fondness for any movies with hantu setan momok santau elements in also develops simultaneously with her intelligence- she's among the smartest in Sekolah Rendah Puteri Pandan. Alhamdulillah..
Hurm, what else can be described about Elleya..she is also very open in expressing her love. I remember her words when she recalled the departure scene during the previous raya. "Elleya x nangis depan orang, tapi dalam kereta Elleya nangis la..sebab rindu.." It has been 3 years that she celebrated raya without a mother by her side. That's the reason why I've got to accept that she becomes too clingy to me.
I could feel the pain in her heart, but there's no cure that I'm able to provide..Sabar ye Eya :') Jadilah anak yang tabah, you always have my trust.

-Card and a Raya gift from Elleya-

2. Puteri Qistina Balqish 6 years old

Puteri Saadong

Her laughter once was an earth shaker, yet now she has changed totally. Perhaps to secure her throne as the puteri of my family. Agaknyalah.. =D On the first day of Raya she asked me for something incredibly unreasonable. "Nunu jom pegi kedai beli buku...!!" when I replied, "penjual buku pon jual lemang raya2 ni" then she shouted "alamak!!.."

3. Nik Emran Shah 6 years old

Emran

Hero Malaya Tok Bah who is also a fan of KL Gangster movie. I feel like cutting his tongue every time when he threw bad words. Shamsul Yusof and his team, stop producing gangster movies laa..haih. Emran still deserves respect when it comes to drawing precision from the inter-cousins drawing competition held by Kak Nor. We can see his talent..biso3!!

4. Nik Hanis Aishah 2 years old

What can I share about Aisyah...hurm, she is aware of her position as a Kakak but it was quite unbearable to deal with her unpredictable 'weather'. I think she needs more attention...In order to satisfy her and at the same time to sustain her happy mood, most of the raya time, all of us watched BabyTV on Astro with silent cry in heart...waaa..ABC 123...bosey. The boredom of the other eyes in the house do no seem to mean much for this innocent Aishah...bosey3!

Hang Lutpi

5. Nik Mohd Lutfil Hadi 2 years old
The best part is when they show some kind of actions that can make us laugh. Lutfi is the best at this. He performed solat at the middle of crowd, at the time when we were having ketupat n rendang during the raya evening..even crazier, he always comes up with a scary flirting action, falling his body into emran's and stay motionless..eugh.. =D

Qashrina

6. Puteri Qashrina Balqish 1 year old

This girl is the most polite niece I've ever had and met. It's so hard to see her crying. She prefers to have sharp breathing a few seconds, signalling that it will turn to sobs while tears accompanied with loud cry comes last. She will try hard to be patient all the time. She's just so cool with more like a bintang filim's egoistic manner. Her smile worth a million, or maybe more than that. Oh Qashrina, please don't grow up =D

7. Nik Mohd Asyraf 1 year old

Aisyah ands Asyraf

Asyraf, the king of hope. His attempts by menggeliat and bergeleloks are parts of his strategy to force us to carry him and keep walking. As long as he is held high with bits of motion, everything will be fine for HIM. You stand still, then he will bergelelok again.. haih..He's quite ambitious as he joins the elder cousins to play ball without realizing that he's still in the paralympic category..hehe...Asyraf the macho-man

**By the way, I just realized that their names are long, as long as mine. Is it genetically destined or what? ;P

Goodbye Ramadhan

Praise be to Allah for His blessings of Ramadhan
Praise be to Allah for giving me experience learning about Islam with Ummi
Praise be to Allah for the improvement on mama's health
Praise be to Allah for the space and time that allows all my six siblings to gather at home this year
Praise be to Allah for all the sumptuous food we shared
Praise be to Allah for making my primary schoolmates gathering into reality
Praise be to Allah for the remembrance of my friends all around the globe
Praise be to Allah for my determination to increase my ibadah throughout the fasting month
Praise be to Allah for the extra 'fishy elements' that indirectly had coloured my holiday

Where there is the beginning, who are we to deny the ending
My dear Ramdhan, I'm hereby letting you go...

Hands in the air

Tahniah!!

Chook-hah-hahm-nee-dah!!

Felicidades!!

At the age of 22, many of my friends had graduated successfully after so much of hard works and sacrifice. Some of them who underwent fast track, 1-year foundation or skipped standard 4 in primary school [pts] will surely feel relieved after tossing their caps. At least, they can start thinking about building life. I take this opportunity, here to congratulate those who had received their scroll. Not to forget, my seniors in school and from Portsmouth Uni. Wishing all of you a smooth path towards achieving your dream career. I still have two more years to finish my 3rd stage;

1. Primary [6yrs]

2. Secondary [5yrs]

--->>>3. Higher edu [6yrs]

4. Career dev- Masters, Ph.D[??]

My course takes up my precious 6 years. Ironically, I'm not doing medicine or any other related field. Looking from a positive angle, this can prove that preparation to teach English isn't easy as how it is viewed universally, it has nothing to do with the gov that's being so lavish to provide more than what is needed. XD

Anyway, I'm still in the process of liking what I'm doing now. Despite the teaching blood that circulates in my vessels, the feeling of wanting to quit is cannot be helped. Sometimes it's just because of a few foolish reasons- living a moderate life is the stigma. Plus, a teacher's life is too predictable> assembly, baju kurung, no AC..XD, also, I am not denying the society pressure. MRSM student and medicine is always a perfect combination, yet I'm doing something else. I am a friend of many future doctors, nearly 50% within my friends whom I'm still in contact with. That is what makes me feel intimidated at times.

Perhaps some of you used to or still have the same dilemma about the field that you are pursuing. It can be as simple as
"What the hell am I doing here? I'm not interested. This is not what I'm interested in. I certainly won't make a good ___"


Not everyone takes the course that he desires, particularly if it is fated. The acceptance is also different to individuals. For the case above, there is a need to ask serenity from Him, so that we can learn to accept such unchangeable things.What is planned by Allah is always the best for us.

"...boleh jadi kamu bencikan sesuatu, sedang Allah hendak menjadikan pada apa yg kamu benci itu kebaikan yg byk untuk kamu" (An-Nisa': 19)

Take note from what the Apple founder said,

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most importantly, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

For me graduation is nothing more than a dull compulsory ceremony to mark the end of your student title in the uni. The real graduation in once you become assured and happy with the field that you are working on.
Love your field first, the spirit will soon follow.
Insha-Allah
ALL THE BEST!!

***For future teachers,  I would recommend you to visit your former teachers in schools to rectify your doubt. Alhamdulillah, it works on me. I feel much better in a sense that I become more sure-footed to educate in the near future. Great teachers give profound impact on students, and it is an everlasting one. Hopefully, the remaining 2 years is sufficient to let the courage to be fully grown  (^_^)/

fear..?yes i am

My mood is not really stable lately. Reading the previous post makes me realize one thing about my current state that contradicts 360 degree.At the moment I'm actually in such an intense feeling of fear, scared, afraid, terrified, just name it. I'm scared that Allah will call my mom to go back to Him. She's sick, her body is weak and even the specialist can't give specific answer for that. Lately, she always mentions the word death, she has the feeling that she does not have much time. My heart cries every time when I hear that. Ya Allah, please increase our life. There are many things that I want to do for ma and abah. Plans and dreams that are not yet fulfilled. Only with your compassion, this pain will reduce. Give us time, give us space, give us chance Ya Allah. It is with the presence of ma and abah that I'm living to my hearts content. I'm really2 scared.. =(

For those who are reading this, please pray for my mom and don't forget to pray for yours too. Don't stop praying. That's the least that we can do. Doesn't matter if with just a small bit, let's try our best, try to show that we care for them.There's nothing wrong about demonstrating our love to parents, truly.

No Fear

First thing first..showing off ;P
[fifi..curi gambar ek]

Sunday-10/7/2011
Whoa..another record has been set yesterday, at Thorpe Park. London. I had overcome my fear to experience Europe's fastest roller coaster>>Stealth@Thorpe Park. That was the best achievement so far, under the
time-wasting+lagho type of activity. ;P. I just can't believe that I could experience the ride that I used to construct in my all-time favourite PC game- Roller coaster tycoon. At first, I told myself many times that I am not going to try Stealth. Xkesah la kalau org kata xremaja pun. No blame on me. It looks damn scary. Eventually, I convinced myself to give a try, and I have no regrets at all. It was such an unbelievably thrilling ride I've ever tried after the roller coasters in Disneyland. With the speed up to 80mph in less than 2 seconds, and the rail that looks almost reaching the sky..CRAZY!!To put in simpler words, you'll never know your limit before you force yourself. Fear is just a play in your mind.  Having too much fear at times can be counter productive.It should not be an obstacle in life. Pokok pangkalnya, acu cuba try test. Do whatever things that you think you can't as long as it would not bring any harm.

“Worry gives a small thing a big shadow.”

This explains enough, isn't it!? =D

Close your eyes

Close your eyes..think about all the great things that happened in your life... and say Alhamdulillah. I just said goodbye to my house yesterday. We actually went through quite a hardship to move all the stuff out. Alhamdulillah, Allah never stopped giving me ways to pass over all the challenges. Alhamdulillah.. Adib is willing to ease our burden [despite the charge ;P]. Another reason to say Alhamdulillah- my research is nearing the completion despite the fact that this remaining 50% would not make any difference.. Alhamdulillah, I have nice friends who always welcome me with smiles and wonderful hospitality. Alhamdulillah I had a dream fulfilled. Alhamdulillah time moves so fast, I just can't wait to embrace ma and abah...that's the ultimate elation of all..oh Datuk Harimau, if you could make the clock ticking two times faster..

1. Bye bilik..

2. Bye rumah...

3. This is the ultimate. Bye Europe!!!

^_^

Bitter fact

While keying in data untuk research, tiba-tiba terasa nak analyse data lain. I check my music files dlm hard disk. See what had I discovered..
417 MB (437,780,638 bytes) [Nasheed songs+ Zikir]
14.6 GB (15,745,084,036 bytes) [English, Latin, Hindustan, Mandarin, Tagalog, Thai, & Malay songs yang melaghokan]

Meaningful mp3 in percentage= 2.7 [excluded quran+ceramah]
Xkesahla..whatever it is..
Selayaknya saya muhasabah diri

Apa nak jadi

Never had I listened to this song without having my heart weighted down by sorrow. Actually I'm so stressed out seeing my facebook newsfeed flooded with all sorts of crticism to our PM, his wife, daughter, the ruling party, their implementations..and the list goes on..everyday!! The majority of people who favour the opposition in particular keep judging the government, highlight every weakness as if there is nothing good done in Malaysia. You get the scholar from the ministry, you go to overseas and you show your stand. Hello kawan, controversies occur everywhere, not only in Malaysia. Nothing is purely clean when it comes to politics, be it in any party. How can we be so sure that what we read and what we hear from the politicians is 100% true? Everything is merely an empty boast. For the sake of money and status, even black can be perceived as white. If you want things to be changed, then change. If you are contented with what you receive all this while, then keep the loyalty to your self. No point condemning. When the time has come, make up your mind and x whom you trust. On that vote paper ok, not through Facebook pleaseeeee!! T,T

Suatu ketika dahulu..

Assalamualaikum wbt..Sunday..another day goes by after the school placement. I keep staring at the research folder on my desk. One contains the questionnaires while the other keeps some journals. They are resting there, without any single physical motion, remain untouched. Research and its entire dimension is so uninteresting, or should I say deadening? Let them rest right there for a while till the moment when I'll sacrifice my heart and soul to complete this final assignment. Ya ku so ku! (^_^)


I feel like sharing something about nickname. Have you ever had a quirky one? I've been called once as Wally, the nickname which was 'inspired' by an animal which is Walrus. It's strange but true. Don't know why my friend group in form 3 had quite an amazing and creative minds. Hebat2..  My group was like  Sailormoon. We labelled ourselves CUMIL (Noun) and Cumilian (Adjective). There's no issue about who's copying who. We are not as cute as Usagi and friends. The battle that we fought was in PMR, plus, we are covered..=D. Here are the members of CUMIL

1. Ayuni (Wally) Walrus
2. Afifah (Not sure about her gelaran,,) I think hers is also tenuk..ye ke tak..?
3. Nabilah (Chibi)  Chibi Maruko Chan- Really don't understand till at this moment of typing, why on earth is  her gelaran having the origin that is a way cuter than others..aik!!??
4. Fatin Farhana (Platty) Platipus- Cute meter: -5%
5. Akma (Magong) Dugong- This is the worst, I believe..haha. Cute meter: unreadable
6. Farah (Eten) Tenuk- Farah tried to make it sounds cuter. I think she did that successfully..pon xpuas hati
7. Ainun (Unknown gelaran..). Cute meter is unused
Our group is actually based on any cute 'things'. We also have our own only-we-understand-when-to-use terms, such as 'cudit', 'zurik', 'shrukk2'. Nabilah is so expert in this, not only in medicine and pills..

 Ok, this is walrus. It's hideous

Tenuk..hurm  cute meter: 65%

And for Nabilah, how cute Chibi is.

LIFE is UNFAIR! >_<

More memory to be reminisced...

1) Tok Bali- 2009

2) @Chibi's casa

3) Reunion cake

Pompeyans gathering at Blenheim Court

[Caution: Reading with empty stomach might cause an unplanned aggravation =D ]

Following the routine of the Brits, spring is not just a blooming season, yet seeing BBQ pits and grill all around fields and gardens are also common. It's ubiquitous I'd say. The people here love to have an outdoor BBQ moments together. In the eyes people who love to mix around with others, and of course the barbecue lover such as my uncle, they'll regard spring as a grilling season. It will be complete when the scent of chickens, kebabs plus the nice barbecue skewers are unified with the scent of flowers. Err, am I being too expressive here? Hehe..keen to share the scene of BBQ+potluck feast in Pompey. This time kak Mel's family were honoured to host the makan2 event at the Blenheim Court. Can you smelllll what the grill is grilling?

Where there's a cake, there's a kid =D. Damia and her sister ready to 'terkam' the cakes

Meats sizzling..mouth drooling

Sanju's birthday cupcakes, the ones that were so beckoning. Cayalah Kak Mel!!

Darwisha was having her own private moment and space

My first time eating the real vegetable skewers but had a wide experience of preparing skewers from Cooking Academy XD

Ibu-ibu bapak-bapak anak-anak

The small family of Pompey

La Tahzan

Why should you feel sad, if you know that Allah is by your side...

It's T-time!

Salaam. It's the end of May. By right I should have started planning for the research. Half of my heart is adamant in the urge to sit on the desk, thinking about my research report. Another half is still in a holiday mood. Of course the winning side is the latter, with no doubt. The temptation for cooking is higher. =D
 Tarra!! Presenting Wellington freestyle cakes, We were just finished eating a while back. Well, this is my first time trial of muffin maker. I used a plain cake recipe plus a sachet of milo, tesco cocoa powder, white chocolate chunks, raisins, and lemon marmalade. Thanks to Next for the online discount card which had hastened my purchase of the muffin maker. It makes the my baking process a lot easier. 3 minutes, and the perfect companion for your tea is ready ^_^

Because on the other side, the grass is greener

Assalamualaikum wbt
This morning I was shocked when watching video about the hijrah of Sham Kamikaze, the guitarist who I admire the most for his talent. Subhanallah..Up till today Allah had never stopped in showing us the lights that shine on anyone He chooses, and at times it happens to someone that we'd never thought of. Allah is great. Thinking about this, actually there's nothing is miraculous nor impossible about the nur because it may be bestowed to anyone even for all of us. If we choose to better ourselves, to become a better Muslim, and the ways are always opened.Everyone has the equal potential to secure a place in Jannah. Who had expected that someone whose life is surrounded by music, singing, dancing, entertainment that obviously far away from Islam had whole-heartedly changed for the sake of eternal happiness in akhirat. I believe that for Sham, this is the best decision he had ever taken in his life. His story makes me ponder how wrong it is to judge people from their external appearance. We can't simply label people, say that the person is A, he doesn't pray,  his hair is dyed, bigmouth, has a lower status in the society,  or whatever. The person still worth if we show him the right way. During the Prophet's pbuh time, He had caused Allah's rebuke until Abasa (80) was revealed. The story was about how a blind  man, Abdullah ibn Umm Maktum came to the Prophet while He was busy teaching a prestigious group of Qurays about Islam. Rasulullah had turned him away because Abdullah arrived untimely and spoke abruptly to him. It might also caused by the difference of social power which somehow affected the prophet's attention. However, in the 'eyes' of Allah everyone deserves respect from one and another.It is a big mistake to judge people, really. Treat everyone equally regardless who they are in a respectful manner.. If there is certain quality of that person that can make you feel irritated, think about his or her adorable attitude. Same goes to hijab. We wear hijab but it does not mean that we are terrorist. The only power who has the absolute right to judge is no one but Allah swt


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Another teeny-weeny test sent by Allah for me and my house mates. Kediaman Al-'Araf bergolak lagi, and this time just because the sink in the kitchen is clogged. The water becomes stagnant in the sink with floating particles that we would prefer for their disappearance. For the water to drain out, it takes all my patience and mental strength- tormentingly slow like a snail, yet fagged out. A list of solutions appears as in they are being projected to my eyes. I tried to overcome the blockage by using plastic cups, use hot water, bought a plunger from Tesco and poured 1/4 a bottle of liquid soda yet nothing seems to give an effect to the piping problem. The effect will soon appear- discouragement to cook for sure.
How this story can be related to my entry title?

Well, this leads me to an expected deduction- woman needs man. No matter how hard that woman tries to project an unshakable attitude, there will be at one point where asking help from a guy can be the best resort.
I am absolutely sure if this happens at house in Kelantan, abah won't let us to even think. He'll get it solved within shot period of time. Nikmatnya...
For those who are thinking of being single till the last breath, I think you better consider. Woman is created for man. That's the norma of life that we must swallow. Not all problems or hardships that woman could get over!

Anyway, sink, please behave.. sakit jiwa raga!

gurindam

these are the collections of me & my neighbor's exam rhymes.please enjoy 'em to the fullest.thank you.

twinkle,twinkle,final paper,

how i wonder how hard you are..

up above the IPROM so high,

like a diamond in the sky,

twinkle,twinkle,final paper,

how i wonder how hard you are.......(Ahmad,Nazirah 2011)

Jack n Jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water,

Jack felt down and broke his arm,

and Jill found a final question paper!!!

weee......(Ahmad,Nazirah 2011)

Marry had a final exam,

final exam,final exam,

Marry had a final exam and her mind is a total zero....  (Ahmad,Nazirah 2011)

Old Nazirah has an exam,

e-ya-e-ya-ooo 

and the exam will be a-day after tomorrow...

e-ya-e-ya-ooo 

calculation here and sketching there,

calculate,sketching and calculate again

Old Nazirah has an exam...

*ramai2*.....eee-yaaa--ee-yaaa-ooooooo!!! (Ahmad,Nazirah 2011)

I'm turning my head up and down

I'm turning turning turning turning turning around

And all that I can see is just another topics to study (Hanim,Ayuni 2011)

Baa, baa, black sheep,

Have you any book?

Yes sir, yes sir,

Three bags full.

One for grammar,

One for arabic,

And one for my face to cover when I sleep XD  (Hanim,Ayuni 2011)

itik gembo2 

aye kedek2 bilo tembo

jaley seringe muko comey lotey

result bia moleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!  (Hanim,Ayuni 2011)