"Best sangat ke merokok ni? Rasa apa kalau smoking?"
If we ask this kind of questions to regular smokers, how will they usually respond? I think the most convincing statement that they are able to provide maybe to maintain their alertness [driving], reducing tense [ amazingly, spending RM10 for a pack of 20 cigarettes does not bring tense] with many other excuses. Rationally thinking, there is no positive reason for consuming cigarettes but till now I keep wondering why people are still spending on that smelly things as if it is an essence of life. Anyway, cigarette was quite an issue that setting my precious final Friday- the day that Ayah Su was arranged to have a surgery to remove his tumor. Early in the morning, we gathered at An Nisa' hospital to accompany Ayah Sun and his wife. Around 2 hours before the operation began, the other family members chatted about funny stories to make Ayah Su forget about his fear for awhile. It began with abah who came out with discipline problems of his students that he could recall. Turning back to Ayah Su, he admitted that he smoked when he was in secondary school but he said it was secretly done with mounting fear of being spotted by any villagers. The situation was not as worse as what is shown by students nowadays. They are so brave to smoke openly at any stalls, 2 meters away from the school gate. At distance Ayah Su described the food stall near to SMK Gaal appears pretty much like Kedai Bahulu every morning due to mushroom cloud of smoke in the area [Uff suddenly the images of fresh bahulu Bukit Jawa flashing in mind..hehe]. That story burst us into laughter, that's pretty common when Ayah Su opened his mouth and shared things. The most awaiting moment for me and all my cousings in every raya is listening to Ayah Su's stories..
Few minutes later the atmosphere changed, where everyone's vision became blurry and tears began to roll down. As if someone was envied of our merriment, Ayah Su was called by a nurse to get ready for his operation. The 6 hour operation is quite risky because the jaw area has complex vessels and neurons. It requires expertise to ensure that his brain and all senses won't be affected. Nobody could hold their emotion, so did I, especially when Ayah Su said in his prayer, "Seandainya ajal aku menghampiri, aku redha dan bersedia Ya Allah".
Seeing Ayah Su in the surgical attire was really aching our hearts. It's hard to describe that sorrow moment. I just could not recall whether I've been in such saddening circumstance before. After Ayah su was brought to OT, we went to the ward to do whatever we could, performing solat hajat, reciting prayers and so on. Everyone seemed to hide their real feeling-the truth that only Him knows.
Well, to cut it short, suddenly we received a call from the staff nurse. Guess what? The operation could not be completed because Ayah Su smoked that morning. He said he took cigarettes because he could not bear with the anxious feeling. Yes, he did fast as instructed but he did not expect that the fast should be real (without smoking). The nicotine clogged heart vessels which is unsafe condition for the surgery. The doctors cancelled it in order to downplay the risk and avoiding more serious complications to the heart. Ayah Su has to endure the pain on his face longer. The doctors asked him to quit smoking for his heart condition to be absolutely stable.
I despise cigarette. Enough said.
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“...he [the Prophet] commands them what is just, and forbids them what is evil; he allows them as lawful what is good, and prohibits them from what is bad..." (Qur'an 7:157).
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