Supremacy

The presence of Jack and Jamie had really made my days that have not been so rosy of late. Their sunniness are like the buds with the power of dispelling gloom. I love every single days that I have to rush back from school just to be with them apart from the main agenda of teaching Jack to read while strengthening the 3Rs knowledge that had been acquired by Along (Jamie). It is far more exciting to teach them with 100% English as compared to teaching those caballeros of Form 5 who look like somebody's son-in-laws but can hardly understand even the kindergarten English instruction. Entering the third week, I am aware that I have not yet done much for Jack due to my poor ability of making him concentrate while I am teaching. Nevertheless, I could assure to his mom that he is now able to read more syllables while Jamie is becoming more comfortable with his present ability. Bless. I am fully aware that tomorrow is the final lesson with them. Hence, since as early as Sunday my mind has been 'deliberately meddled' in thinking what should I do during my final lesson with them. While invigilating PMR trial exam I cracked my head to write a simple letter to Jack. I wish that this letter will be the first letter that he will read as soon as he can. Perhaps something like "I will always be in Kelantan, make it as a point to come back again, or Raya has been done me really good, you should not give up, keep in mind that everybody looks up to you too, not only Jamie"..whatever words that can evoke positivity to Jack. However, that letter was unfinished. A few Form 2 kids were kind of terrible nuisance during the exam and they actually cut off my writing. That plan stopped there and I plan to continue it tonight since there is a plenty of time before tomorrow. Today's lesson was great too. Jack and Jamie enjoyed much the maze activities although it was ended a bit early because both of them are still wheezy after an asthma attack. We played "what is the thing game" which is their favourite routine before I leave the house everyday. Just now before leaving I took some random photos again although there will still be tomorrow. That Mak Usu started making me sad by saying "hurm lepas ni rindu la kat teacher, xde dah esok last". I guess Mak Usu is not quite right. That statement should go the other way. While driving home I thought It would be nice if I give them cookies tomorrow. After terawikh will be ok to bake simple things like cookies a giant one like those sold at UK Tesco. I know they will enjoy it much by looking at the condition of their teeth...heheeh. That sudden plan caused a sharp turn to supermarket. A perfect cookie comes from expensive and quality ingredients. Van Houten choc chips will do, insya-Allah. Owing to the limited lot, I parked the car terribly and rushed to the mart. Yeah, tonight just bake the cookies, print the final exercise sheets and a love letter to Jack and Jamie. Fortunately, I left a stick of butter out from the fridge too. Yeay. I feel so excited to see them munching my cookies tomorrow. I also want to retell about the ghost story.I know how far their mind has been influenced by my story of how a kid will turn into pocong after being 7 days in the grave if the drink the coloured water from the colour pencil dust. While I was getting ready for the kitchen war, with the Van Houten ready, I received a text from Kak Esya, "Dik, we need to go back to KL tomorrow, emergency reason. TQ so much. Please give your bank details for this week payment:)".

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Sorry keyboard for making you wet
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Last 10 nights

Quoted dari Ustaz PK HEM assembly pagi semalam dengan telinga separa fokus sambil main game
  >.<
-Allah mengurniakan lailatul qadar sebab Dia consider umat Nabi Muhammad paling pendek umurnya.
-Ganjaran paling besar bulan Ramadhan ialah ibadah yang paling rare untuk dilakukan syuru' dan dhuha. Allah tidak boleh membayar ganjaran even dengan satu pelusuk dunia
-Sepanjang Ramadhan pahala sunat menjadi fardhu
-Cara berdoa yg afdhal: Asma ul Husna 3x then berdoalah banyak2. Yep, if we don't now that person takkan nak bagi hadia plk. Sama la konsepnya nak minta dengan Allah walaupun dia Al-Waliy :)

Solacing ^_^ source especially tgh2 malam 

Selamat beramal. Gear up! Madrasatu Tarbiyatu Ruhi ni beberapa hari lagi dah nak tutup untuk sesi 2013. Target saya ialah meloloskan diri untuk masuk Syurga melalui pintu ke 8- untuk org yg memejamkan mata dari perkara yg haram, beramal soleh,berbakti kepada org tua dan menyambung tali persaudaraan dan menjadi ahli Syurga Adnin yg akan dibisikkan oleh para Malaikat siap2 sebelum wafat An-Nahl:32. Berbekalkan kompas hati (iman) yang banyak kali jarumnya senget2..terpengaruh dengan magnet2 kejahilan.Memang flawed habis T.T

Taking the road

Huu susahnya nak buat keputusan. 17 Aug. Wedding cousin di hotel kat Putrajaya or wedding faizuan n Siti di Kelantan? Ya Allah.. Stress betul kalau ada 2 big events on the same day. selalu buat ala2 the Flash untuk join both, but this time memang impossible. Sepupu yg tidak rapat dan janji untuk tlg drive untuk ayah atau wedding kawan sekelas mrsm n kls sblh mrsm yg epic an get a chance to meet my college mates after spm? Last year pon I regret once in making wrong choice. The biggest dice on earth pon will never satisfy me. I choose friend this time. Macam mana nak create ayat yg plg best utk satisfy parents?? =.= aduuuh.. Nervous... Mcm mn nii..and I know I wont be entirely happy to chase for friends at te expense of letting down abah and ma. There are times in life you disappoint people you love and similarly people you love may also disappoint you. That cycle goes like that lah kot to one degree or another, inevitably. I reaaaaally2 wish that they don't mind not having me around. Hope abah can drive well to KL. Betulke ni? Feel like banging my head to the wall now

Orang baru

Dear diary,

Today's iftar took place at Kg Pulau Hilir like how it has been done for past years. As we gathered there, my closest cousin made a huge surprise which is introducing his girlfriend to the whole family. She just finished her SPM last year and this year she is concentrating on the vision of the relationship as in making one step further after another. Yup, the moment has arrived in a sense that everybody seems to move on in their life as how it should be. My friend-like cousin who is the only family member who adresses me as 'awak' is now having somebody to care more during family events. I've lost him, but that is not exactly the point. When Ipi said that she will get married soon that day also impacted me so deeply. Hello, I am a latte lover. It is said that those who prefer latte of other types of coffee-based drink is always reflective but indecisive. Lol. Something needs to be changed perhaps? Like mom said I guess I should not resist myself from getting into a serious man-woman relationship like how my cousin does. There are canals to be loosened up too. Plus, jodoh perlu diusahakan jgk. :) Haih.. Like the earth beneath my feet, that is how silent you are. Please show up soon. :)

3 ciri untuk mengenali jodoh: 3m- memahami, memaafkan, memotivasikan diri ke arah yg diredhaiNya-husnul khatimah

:)

5K4

Day 5 at the school. Apa yg boleh dikatakan, 5K4 masih dlm top ranking kelas yg plg mencabar. Sedih mengenangkan 7 heroes tu. Handsome sihat semua tapi xnk belajar, membaca xlancar, critical sangat. Rasa kesian bila tgk cikgu lain yg msk kelas tu membawa magazine, selak3 bunyi je loceng keluar. If 5 tahun dlm kls akhir n layanan cikgu mcm tu, so what can be concluded, tidak akan berlakunya sebarang pembinaan utk kemajuan. Smlm bila tanya ada buku je x they just replied kitorg dtg sekolah xperlu buku. Too bad =.=..zz. Bila sy nk koyak buku sdiri br diorg kalut nk keluarkn apa2 kertas bwh meja. Berjaya ajar adverb of manners ngn contoh yg mudah. Alhamdulillah depa stay kat tmpt duduk slm 40 mnt tanpa usha2 girls kat luar, bergaduh or buat perangai. Tadi bila nak ajar membaca, sy tanya smlm mcm mn nak ckp psl verb? 2,3 org answered ly..ly.. "Walk slowlyy".. Rasa sebak. Jadi la tahu sikit. Happy sgt. Lebih bermakna dr merit. Semoga usaha ini dipermudahkanNya. 5K4 sangat perlu dibantu. Sangat yg teramat.

Confusion

I am now trapped in a state of confusion. I find myself disoriented in a sense of future planning. Yes, the place where I will be posted really matters to design the pattern of life that I gonna live. I wish I can work in Kelantan, but there are a few times that I want to migrate like how abah did. Go somewhere else, meet new people,live in new surroundings. Being away for a few years somehow had changed the way I think. Nevertheless, it is absolutely wrong to say that I am mentally prepared to be sent to Sabah or Sarawak. Those states never exist in my mind, nor my eyes to imagine. I want to take care of my parents but Kelantan is not the land where I wanted my house poles being erected. No, I don't want. When abah said the principal of Sekolah Menengah Sains Pasir Puteh is interested to arrange that I will serve at that a school, what can I see in my eyes is nothing. It is all dark, lonely, and quiet. That sounds good if than nothing, but I just don't want to be here as early as 24. Give me life for 1 year or 2, at least before I have my own family. Once in Kelantan, will always be in Kelantan. Abah will get really upset if he knows this. I know. That might be a reason too that I don't want to show my excitement. It is very hard to tell, but if only abah knows what is hidden in my mind T.T no, tak nak. Please I don't want.

How to save your heart

The list appears to be: Simple-Straightforward-Sensible-Sane
#self-taught

little by little

4.03 am

Take 5..
8 pages to go..
Energy is slowly dying out..
Sat na cheq,, I shall give you one nice break wahai laptop.

(***Psst..Dr Izzati Zahari, in case awok napok ni,,pnh dgr x lagu ni? Rsnya thp best dio sama level ngn insan bernama kekasih dh :-)

My Chemical Romance

When I was a young boy,My father took me into the city,To see a marching band,He said "son when you grow up"Will you be the saviour of the broken,The beaten and the damned
He said will you defeat themYour demons and all the non-believersThe plans that they have made..
-_-_and this all time fav song ends here_-_-
To that particular dad, should I give my response on behalf of your son?Yeah demons their comrades are not around in Ramadhan. They are locked up somewhere, with their legs chained. Al-Bukhari confirmed that. The gates of Paradise are open whereas the gates of Hellfire are closed.
But.. I've been defeated instead
Why does the thought keep coming in my terawikh..obviously not the plan of demons??Is it another form of image, dream in the past, or something occult, perhaps beautiful, long2 time ago, for sure not so significant yet remain steady in this mind... 
I just want a better tomorrow, specifically a better terawikh tomorrow.
~~Krikk2~~

:')

Assalamualaikum Encik or Cik diary (or unisex kah? :D)
Cerita hari ni perlu dikongsi. Memandangkan printed diary is prone to the heartless pest, i tnink it would be nice to be immortalized here. Safe, private, insya-Allah selamat je. Or maybe dgn pembaca dr Klang itu juga. (I guess I know who..u told me once kt London dulu you own a secret blog.unfair... T.T). Dengan niat utk membuka mata sesiapa shj yg stumble upon this site, Sorry rojak sikit post ni.

"You need to migrate yuni if you want to work" viki ckp
"Kelantan ni xde pape ma...org xpentingkn education.lagi excited nk raya kot dr nk hire tutor. lain la kat KL nuu. Mana ada culture tutor dtg rmh mcm org kaya2 kat sini.."saya cakap
"kak yuni masak je utk abah.hujung bulan abah bagi elaun sara diri 3,4 ratus" abah ckp

Semua quotes yg tidak memotivasikan diri menghantui 3,4 hari ni. Job offer plk mengajar Fizik form 5..the subject that I hate the most. Cuba jgk tgk balik buku tu..yes, looks like the content are all written in urdu scripts. Haremm tak faham satu apa.Xigt, x confident after a few times that I tried to remarry the Fokus U Fizik yg tebal tu. Maaf Cikgu Zainal.Ilmu cikgu bagi xlekat T.T
Suffice to say, saya blame nasib diri yg dilahirkan di  tmpt yg kurengg 'money booming'. Apatah lg bila rakan2 seprjuangan bukan main aktif menjadi guru ganti..Seriously xde cigu beranak di daerah ini selain cikgu Fizik tu?? T.T. Stress jugak dgn nature sy yg suka komitmen. Betul kata Ipi :D

Dipendekkan cerita, hari ini bermula dgn kecergasan as early as 7 am. Dapat call dr kwn yg maybe ada mutual desire untuk borak2..And I got to know about his family history yg pernah berniaga kecil kecilan which is totally out of my mind by looking at who he is today. Kat situ dah rs mcm oh wow, spirit boosting sgt...sgt. I look back at my life,,,xprnh rasa kaya but at least xprnh rs susah. Dr kecil set colour pencil Luna tu ada, maybe 12 bukan set 36, tp at least colour pencils tu xpernah xde.

Selepas itu..sy submit thesis Yanti. Tgh hari tu parents balik tunjuk beg.Sgt random mak belikan skirt sehelai,,wah terharu.Abah suruh belikan..huu TQ Abah.sgt comel.. Yup, niat nk krgkn pakaiseluar. Ladies will be nicer in skirt...sopan sikit kot. And I told myself at that moment nak let go baju Polo yg obviously pendek, x ikut sunnah n if pakai kena angkat tudung nk nampak kuda polo tu.Saya akan pakai kalau tergantung dlm almari so better benda disappear for my own good,.hajat nk jual n tup2 dtg pula seorg brother ni nk beli direct kat rmh. Semudah ABC birthday present Pompey itu berpindah pemilik for RM100 walaupun sedih thinking of hours spent pusing RL kat Gunwharf tu.sorg2 plk tu...Syukur lagi.. :)) After that, Yanti sms dgn penuh kegembiraan dgtn thesis nya yg barangkali dh berubah ke arah positif sikit. Maybe dia terus berlari2 riang ke bank untuk byr. dlm 15 minit mcm tu terus bank in. OK alhamdulillah again..

Masuk bilik, dpt sms plk dr Pusat Tusyen Wassis. Sila dtg segera mengisi borang. Kami mengalu-alukan kedatangan cik..Ommo..yes yes!! seronoknya. This gonna be my FIRST organization that I gonna work with. Sekolah tu xkira..xsabar nak register esk. 4 days without reply, alih2 ada. sapa la yg send tu, encik or cik betul2 kacak n lawa di mata sy.sumpah!

Positive meter masih menyala2 bila Yanti contact lg. Kawan dia plk rs tercabar n nak jugak her writing to be proofread. n i said fine.Pukul 6 petang tu Ipi plk tanya free tak kalau ada org nk upah proofread..Rasa nak peluk jugak Ipi,, yeyyyyyy. Pukul 9 mlm td, I gave my 100 hasil proofreading yg pertama to my parents. In fact xkesah pon duit..hoho.amik la ma 50 n abah 50.nampak muka terharu/diorg. I slowly entered my room n dr dlm pon dgr lg ma plan nk beli apa with that money..mama tanya lg betul ke nk bg ni, your effort kot//n i shout dgn macho..amik la ma..it's fine.i believe this will generate more rezeki..gelak2 sikit.

Ok, sambung2 check thesis kawan Yanti sampai pkl 2, Jenuh gk nk handle thesis yg ni..tp terus jgk sbb da jnji ini malam juga akan submit. dkt nk tido tu dpt plk email dr tuition job. satu website yg sy rs 2% je possibility ada org nak cr tutot kelate..daerah pasir puteh yg terpencil plk tu.and I finally saw this "Akak cr tutor utk anak akak. Akak dr Wangsa Maju tapi akak nak puasa kat Gong Kulim Pasir Puteh sepanjang Ramadhan. Akak xnk pelajaran anak akak ni terabai..dia mix malay chinese scottish, Harap dpt mengajar 2-3 jam sehari" Ya Allah...xsgka ada..2-3 jam sehari..sepanjang Ramadhan. What else that I want? Definitely, it is going to be great..

1. Ini rezeki Ramadhan
2. Kena yakin dgn rezeki Allah
3. Buat apa-pun kena ikhlas
4. Lapangkanlah hati parents dengan semudah-mudah cara

With so much love and affection,

I love you Allah

Baitul rahmah

Ismi Ayuni, Taqo'u baity fil Injiliziyah fi syari' hadsun. Askunu fi hunaka ma'a sodiqati aqrobun min qalbi. Hunna Izati, Afiqah Wa viki. Nahdasu da'iman fi amam albabul bait. Uridu an azhabu ila baituna kathiran. Mumkin sa'azhabu ila hunaka marrotanni?

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Test test..
Dengan ini saya..
Merayu pada pihak OUM
Tolong lah terima sy sebagai temporary tutor.
Saya berjanji akan menggunakan segala potensi diri saya untuk meningkatkan prestasi OUM!!

Before this little encephalon get rusted, oh Tuhan, give me a STRONG reason to get out of bed.
Kelantan will give you peace but wont get your career developed... Betull. I could hardly believe that I'm going through this dull life.ok xnk mengeluh. I need a plaster on my lips..