The Sonnet

This a very honest statement spoken from my heart..hehe. I never enjoy learning literature. Maybe I perceive myself as a literal kind of person.If you can tell something directly, there's no use of using those metaphors and stuffs. Hehe...That's a norm. You don't have to lie to your self. It doesn't matter what field that we are in, there must be a tiny part of it that you don't truthfully in favor of..but i'm not hostile to literature. Just its complexity that makes me want to pass out XD. However, poem sometimes can make you laugh. One of those that I've found is written by Arianna Losgnowsky..It's brilliant! 

It's funny

it's funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye
it's funny how good memories can start to make you cry
it's funny how forever never seems to last
it's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past
it's funny how “friends” can just leave when you are down
it's funny how when you need someone they never are around
it's funny how people change and think they're so much better
it's funny how many lies are packed into one “love letter”
it's funny how one night can contain so much regret
it's funny how you can forgive but not forget
it's funny how ironic life turns out to be
but the funniest part of all, is none of thats funny to me 

Oh maktabku

My juniors' effort that warms the cockles of my heart.

Proud to be part of it..

How I miss my happy moments at MRSM PC

^_^

Life is bittersweet

Assalamualaikum


Today I received quite a shocking news. My friend's house has been robbed and the estimated loss was about £400. It was just yesterday day I saw him laughing. It happened when all of them were out for prayer. Innalillah..What a bad day for the whole house. I just cannot imagine if I were at his place. The allowance still doesn't show any sign of arrival until today. I have no other option than to cut my expenses for food, and of course I could not afford to lose anything that I have..Oh Ya Allah.please don't test us as such...Anyhow that incident taught me to be more vigilant. Southsea is actually the most risky area in Portsmouth..believe it or not T,T. You laugh today but you might cry tomorrow. Today, maybe you still can walk but who knows one day you get sick, you cannot do anything but spending the whole day in the bed. Isn't life is bitter sweet in that sense? Hurm..I was thinking about the highlighted sentence from Al- Baqarah during our usrah this evening which was about His test for the Muslims could be in many ways, be it with hunger, fear or poverty (2:155-6). Every part of Quran that we discuss will always be significant for the event that follows. It's quite a peculiar coincidence but it trully is.However, no matter how hard the test is, Allah knows from the outset that we have the strength to overcome it..[Ya Allah cepat la masuk elaun.. nak beli tiket balik Malaysia...T,T]

Don't ask for more

Shades ni xpenting..lagi bagus duit tu buat fix gigi..hehe

This is the summary of our halaqah this week. The central issue is about qanaah= the feeling of contented if what Allah has given to us. It is interwoven with zuhud, basically. If we feel what we have is enough, it surely will leave our heart at ease. Zuhud is derived once we have a strong qanaah.. Qanaah leads us for modesty, bring us away from the lust for material and wealth. What is favored by Allah is  to devote our health for the happiness of others and religion, of course. Live generously, but at the same time don't be too spendthrift. Every pence that we spend needs to be based upon a well judgement on whether or not for it to be used for a particular purpose. When I was looking at my wardrobe last night, I came to realize there's a heap of clothes that I rarely wear.Considering that shopping can cure my boredom, my money had been wasted for nothing significant. Often that a person like me [hopefully you are not] will not find it wasting at the first place. Usually I will end up leaving the mall with a bag, even though the initial intention was to give an escort service...hehe. That's truly the effect of unwise judgement..Try to seize upon qanaah and keep it firm within yourself. I think it works as a shield from the undesirable bankruptcy XD

Haih..mana pegi duit sy ni...

Hadith12: The characteristic of the real mukmin is the one who always avoid unimportant things in life.
There is a clear line between what is good and what is bad..nothing comes in the middle. The true believers would never compromise in their action. They know how to distinguish between the twoIt's hard though. Enjoyable stuffs are normally have no purpose and we can easily get lured. [Facebooking, utubing, gaming, chatting..cooking..See..the drawbacks of technology!! Blame on the internet connection here which is super-fast!  *sigh*] Try our best to control it. Actually we ourselve can decide to be a master or victim. As soon as you realize that you have diverted to such "lagho" activities, pull yourself away and turn back to the main plan.What we need to do is to question ourselves, utilize our bright mind to evaluate what we do everyday.[so..so.. virtuous ^_^]


A story of Khaulah bint Thalabah- the reason of the revelation of Surah Al-Mujadilah. She's outspoken and brave. She's brave enough to say what is right and to argue for justice when her husband pronounced 'zihar' on her by saying “You are to me like my mother’s back” [It reminds me of the PAI lesson in 5J, where everyone got excited to learn about marriage XD] The great thing happened was when Allah listened to her complaint. Subhanallah.

Tick tock tick

Salaam

February 10, 2011. It's almost half of February, which means that I have been in the UK for 18 months. I have another 18 months to go. The past 18 months had gone just like in a split second. It feels like yesterday that I was struggling for SPM. Yeah, who has the power to halt the time? If there's a way of doing so, If there's a machine to turn back time, just give me the link. I won't hesitate to buy it, seriously

These lovely kids are my nieces and nephew. The first three grandchildren of my family. At this time they were all lovely and innocent..Suppose that the best way to be aware of the passed time is by looking at the children development. I don't want to admit, but from time to time my thinking is highly moulded by the content of my study. It's more towards psychologist-like..Jean Piaget!!?? Darn!!

Elleya (3 y/o), Puteri (1 y/0) and Emran 

(1y/o). A photo taken during Aidilfitri 2006

Elleya(5 y/o) Emran (3 y/o) Puteri (3 y/o)

Elleya(8 y/o) Emran (6 y/o) Puteri (6 y/o)

See the changes they go through within 5 years. They were no longer kids that can easily being fooled. It makes it harder for me not to lend my ipod or laptop. No more silly excuses such as "laptop nunu rosak"..or "bateri xde.." It would rather make you to be like an idiot because they can sense the lame tricks even better. Hai budak2 sekarang..overdose Enfagrow kot XD

Looking at their growth, I think time flies by even faster when we get older. There is a list of dream that I left unaccomplished...Will there be a time for these? One thing for sure, if we know the value of time, there would not be a single moment that you do not know whether to wind a watch or bark at the moon. As long as Allah still gives us time, make full use of it =)

This an excerpt from Harian Metro, relevant to be shared here

Rasulullah melalui sabdanya yang bermaksud: “Seorang yang berakal tidak selayaknya menghabiskan waktu kecuali untuk tiga perkara iaitu mencari bekalan akhirat, memperbaiki taraf hidup atau menikmati hiburan tidak diharamkan.” (Riwayat Ahmad dan Ibnu Hibban)

and also..this one. Copied from my mailbox

• To realize the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who failed a grade.
• To realize the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who gave birth to a pre-mature baby.
• To realize the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
• To realize the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
• To realize the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who missed the train.
• To realize the value of ONE SECOND, ask a person who just avoided an accident.
• To realize the value of ONE MILLISECOND, ask the person who won a silver medal in the Olympics.

Syukurillah

If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it yourself! Just leave it to Allah, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now


If you find yourself stressed out because of your study, think of other students who dropped-out because of financial constraint 

If you find yourself staying in a small house, think of the homeless refugee

If you find yourself stuck in traffic, don't despair, think of other people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.


If you find yourself less pretty on the mirror, think of other people who are blind and do not know how they look


If you find yourself having problem in relationship think of other people who had never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.

If you find yourself not taken cared by your parents, think of the orphans who do not know the meaning of parents

If you find yourself being served with food that you dislike, think of other people who are starving

If you find yourself broke, think of the poor, who work day and night to survive


If you find your life is meaningless, think of the people who had left you. They didn't live long enough to get the opportunity


And the list goes on with many other 'if's..to stand as the reason for us to be thankful.
Take time to reflect and say Alhamdulillah

Because of Him

Salaam

It has been two days without a new entry. I feel quite lacking, really. Is this what they call as blogging addiction? Hehe..at the moment is not yet too occupied, so there is still a chance for me to babble here insya-Allah with regards to something significant. Now let's talk about sacrifice. I have been bothered by this word lately. During the Fresher's Fayre Ipi and I had registered our names as the blood donors under NHS. It is not merely for experience but deep inside I think I don't mind sacrificing my blood if it could bring back the smiles of others. That night, again I was taught about the value of sacrifice. I did watch one telemovie, La Ikroha Fiddin which is about  a life journey of Dr Edward who embraces Islam and willingly donates his organs. Yeah, story is a creation but credit should be given to the production team who had tried hard to ingrain values to the audience. Sacrifice is actually a part of our life..but do we realize that the feeling of reluctance to sacrifice for other people's sake is lesser, but not for Allah? We can view this as a test of our faith. That is to say, we admit that we love Allah but how much we can sacrifice for Him? When there is a chance for me to attend any program in UK, I will keep looking for excuses. I have assignment, other commitment, someone is coming, I'm going somewhere, money matters..this and that but. Ironically, when it comes to doing something fun like travelling, watching movies or shopping, I can straight away say yes with so much ease? Why must I struggle resist the pleasure of spending my Saturday and Sunday in my room when there are groups of students out there who are busier, studying in more complicating field but still can attend and handle the programs? That is actually can manifest the degree of love to Allah. Astaghfirullah. I always forget that Allah is at the top of my priority, top of my urgency. If we love Allah, we practically can sacrifice anything, aren't we? This reminds me of Abdul Rahman bin Auf, Izzati shared the story during usrah session yesterday of how he had sacrificed his property to ensure the success of hijrah. It's very clear to reflect. Everything we have today belongs to Him, be it money, time, and our health, even.Sacrifice is also can be in a form of doing something that you dislike. Where is the willingness to sacrifice? Where is the force towards it? How strong is your iman? How can we show that we feel thankful for what He has bestowed? Indeed, love lies as the grounding of sacrifice. Such love that will give you the strength to offer anything for Him. "The true believers love Allah more than all else" (2:165). There's no specific formula for this. It comes from your faith that the more you sacrifice in duniya, the more you can harvest later. So why don't we choose to sacrifice our temporary pleasure because Allah will surely offer more. The harder is the challenge that we go through to for Him, the higher is its worth. But again, it ought to be based with pleasure and sincerity to give up what we love. "My Prayer and my sacrifice, my living and my dying belong to Allah, the Lord of all the worlds" (al-An'am 6:162).
[Kak Jannah..minta maaf. Akak xperlu merayu pun sebenarnya..insya-Allah sy ikut =')]

Segalanya Milik-Mu

Nasheed..Before this I feel shy to let other people know that I listen to nasheed. I used to think to the extent that nasheed, IKIM are meant only for the  pious. I'm not good enough for that. Jahilnya..in school, I made effort to join my best mates' conversation by listening to Coldplay, The Rasmus, Simple Plan, dan sekutunya..It was all unnatural, really. I was highly influenced by a myth: you look cool if you listen to English songs..The narrow mind I have was somewhat westernized. Kononnya lah..hehe..poyo2. 

The singer is also the plus point. No blame on me. Just look at what the transformation of Faizal Tahir and Khairul Izwan. Such changes that had got to the heart of my scepticism. Having said that, those minor facets are no longer hindering my interest towards nasheed. Today, with a great honour I want to declare that I love nasheed, but not all. I fell in love with this song. This is one of my favourite. Try to listen to its lyrics, get the message and feel it =)

Mestica- Segalanya Milik Mu

Kau yang menciptakan cinta
Dan Kau jua yang menghampar bahagia
Di ribaan-Mu terhimpun harapan
Impian tulus setiap insan

Kau yang mengutuskan duka
Dan Engkaulah yang mengirimkan hampa
Namun pada-Mu jua diadukan
Merabahkan keresahan dan tangisan

Aku tahu inilah kasih-Mu
Aku tahu inilah cinta-Mu
Dan ku tahu tiap yang terbaik untukku
Tak semuanya yang ku mahu

Di celah hangat nafas yang terhela
Ada dingin saat menyeru (menyebut) nama-Mu
Terarah segala ronta dan rasa
Pada damainya dakapan-Mu
Aku tahu inilah kasih-Mu
Aku tahu inilah cinta-Mu
Dan ku tahu di segenap ruang rasaku
Telah Kau titipkan kekuatan
Oh Tuhan

sadness

Yesterday,
What an awful day,
For the failure brings dismay,

My motivation too begins to decay.


Wait, why must I care what people say?
Isn't life is just a play?


Sadness, depression, I shoo all of you away!
Oh sun, please bring back your ray,
Fire of spirit awaits me to lay,
To Allah that I should pray
Surely He will show me the way,
Solutions will come in array,
With His willingness, things gonna be okay,
I'll make it someday!




Well, everyone must have tasted failure in life. Sadness is ultimately going to be an unavoidable effect, but there's no point whining. Tears serve nothing. Clock won't stop ticking. We still have tomorrow and we still have today to work for a better tomorrow, aren't we? Chin up!!

Sisters: How to seek protection

Salaam

Recently I did attend one Islamic circle organized by the Islamic Society of Portsmouth. One the core group members of ISOP, Jameel, if i'm not mistaken had touched about how vulnerable sisters are in today's modern life. What has been highlighted is the issue of black magic, be it owing to jealousy of others or perhaps our own dark intention to cause misfortune to others without we realizing that we commit it. To protect ourselves from any kind of evil, there are ways that we can put into practice, the ones that I myself take for granted most of the time
1. Stay in wudhuk
2. Hair and nails that had been cut should not be thrown simply. It should be either buried or wrap them in paper or tissue. We first have to believe the existence of jinn that is clearly stated in the Surah Al-Hijr (15: 26-27). Jinn tend to disturb those who are not really care about their personal hygiene, particularly when it comes to sanitary practice. Therefore, there is a need to beware on how you handle your sanitary pad, hair or nails. As the nature of jinn is that they "could walk through door but cannot open it", wrapping pad, hair and nails before throwing them is important.
3. Recite 'Auzubillah... it is also to control anger
4. Recite Bismillah. Basing whatever your action on Allah by saying bismillah at the beginning may ease your work as well as protect us from the evil of Satan.

Basically, the kalimah bismillahirrahmanirrahim may be understood as:

     - By means of the very essence of God

     - For the glory of our Creator

     - With the light of the One

     - With the guidance of The Divine

     - As an instrument of the One

    - In harmony with Divine Presence 

Taken from:

http://wahiduddin.net/words/bismillah.htm

Not to forget, Alhamdulillah is also crucial for He deserves 'alham' because everything we have in this world is the bounty of Allah

5. Eat dates[kurma/tamar]. Based on the Riwayah al-Bukhari, Rasulullah (pbuh) said that those who eat seven dates each day will be benefited as the dates help to prevent poisoning. At a murder trial at Khaybar war, Rasulullah was ingested by poison, yet the substances contained in the dates had neutralized it.Also, eating dates can protect us from black magic.

That's it! Hopefully this will benefit all of us!! =)