Goodbye Ramadhan

Praise be to Allah for His blessings of Ramadhan
Praise be to Allah for giving me experience learning about Islam with Ummi
Praise be to Allah for the improvement on mama's health
Praise be to Allah for the space and time that allows all my six siblings to gather at home this year
Praise be to Allah for all the sumptuous food we shared
Praise be to Allah for making my primary schoolmates gathering into reality
Praise be to Allah for the remembrance of my friends all around the globe
Praise be to Allah for my determination to increase my ibadah throughout the fasting month
Praise be to Allah for the extra 'fishy elements' that indirectly had coloured my holiday

Where there is the beginning, who are we to deny the ending
My dear Ramdhan, I'm hereby letting you go...

Hands in the air

Tahniah!!

Chook-hah-hahm-nee-dah!!

Felicidades!!

At the age of 22, many of my friends had graduated successfully after so much of hard works and sacrifice. Some of them who underwent fast track, 1-year foundation or skipped standard 4 in primary school [pts] will surely feel relieved after tossing their caps. At least, they can start thinking about building life. I take this opportunity, here to congratulate those who had received their scroll. Not to forget, my seniors in school and from Portsmouth Uni. Wishing all of you a smooth path towards achieving your dream career. I still have two more years to finish my 3rd stage;

1. Primary [6yrs]

2. Secondary [5yrs]

--->>>3. Higher edu [6yrs]

4. Career dev- Masters, Ph.D[??]

My course takes up my precious 6 years. Ironically, I'm not doing medicine or any other related field. Looking from a positive angle, this can prove that preparation to teach English isn't easy as how it is viewed universally, it has nothing to do with the gov that's being so lavish to provide more than what is needed. XD

Anyway, I'm still in the process of liking what I'm doing now. Despite the teaching blood that circulates in my vessels, the feeling of wanting to quit is cannot be helped. Sometimes it's just because of a few foolish reasons- living a moderate life is the stigma. Plus, a teacher's life is too predictable> assembly, baju kurung, no AC..XD, also, I am not denying the society pressure. MRSM student and medicine is always a perfect combination, yet I'm doing something else. I am a friend of many future doctors, nearly 50% within my friends whom I'm still in contact with. That is what makes me feel intimidated at times.

Perhaps some of you used to or still have the same dilemma about the field that you are pursuing. It can be as simple as
"What the hell am I doing here? I'm not interested. This is not what I'm interested in. I certainly won't make a good ___"


Not everyone takes the course that he desires, particularly if it is fated. The acceptance is also different to individuals. For the case above, there is a need to ask serenity from Him, so that we can learn to accept such unchangeable things.What is planned by Allah is always the best for us.

"...boleh jadi kamu bencikan sesuatu, sedang Allah hendak menjadikan pada apa yg kamu benci itu kebaikan yg byk untuk kamu" (An-Nisa': 19)

Take note from what the Apple founder said,

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most importantly, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

For me graduation is nothing more than a dull compulsory ceremony to mark the end of your student title in the uni. The real graduation in once you become assured and happy with the field that you are working on.
Love your field first, the spirit will soon follow.
Insha-Allah
ALL THE BEST!!

***For future teachers,  I would recommend you to visit your former teachers in schools to rectify your doubt. Alhamdulillah, it works on me. I feel much better in a sense that I become more sure-footed to educate in the near future. Great teachers give profound impact on students, and it is an everlasting one. Hopefully, the remaining 2 years is sufficient to let the courage to be fully grown  (^_^)/

fear..?yes i am

My mood is not really stable lately. Reading the previous post makes me realize one thing about my current state that contradicts 360 degree.At the moment I'm actually in such an intense feeling of fear, scared, afraid, terrified, just name it. I'm scared that Allah will call my mom to go back to Him. She's sick, her body is weak and even the specialist can't give specific answer for that. Lately, she always mentions the word death, she has the feeling that she does not have much time. My heart cries every time when I hear that. Ya Allah, please increase our life. There are many things that I want to do for ma and abah. Plans and dreams that are not yet fulfilled. Only with your compassion, this pain will reduce. Give us time, give us space, give us chance Ya Allah. It is with the presence of ma and abah that I'm living to my hearts content. I'm really2 scared.. =(

For those who are reading this, please pray for my mom and don't forget to pray for yours too. Don't stop praying. That's the least that we can do. Doesn't matter if with just a small bit, let's try our best, try to show that we care for them.There's nothing wrong about demonstrating our love to parents, truly.

No Fear

First thing first..showing off ;P
[fifi..curi gambar ek]

Sunday-10/7/2011
Whoa..another record has been set yesterday, at Thorpe Park. London. I had overcome my fear to experience Europe's fastest roller coaster>>Stealth@Thorpe Park. That was the best achievement so far, under the
time-wasting+lagho type of activity. ;P. I just can't believe that I could experience the ride that I used to construct in my all-time favourite PC game- Roller coaster tycoon. At first, I told myself many times that I am not going to try Stealth. Xkesah la kalau org kata xremaja pun. No blame on me. It looks damn scary. Eventually, I convinced myself to give a try, and I have no regrets at all. It was such an unbelievably thrilling ride I've ever tried after the roller coasters in Disneyland. With the speed up to 80mph in less than 2 seconds, and the rail that looks almost reaching the sky..CRAZY!!To put in simpler words, you'll never know your limit before you force yourself. Fear is just a play in your mind.  Having too much fear at times can be counter productive.It should not be an obstacle in life. Pokok pangkalnya, acu cuba try test. Do whatever things that you think you can't as long as it would not bring any harm.

“Worry gives a small thing a big shadow.”

This explains enough, isn't it!? =D

Close your eyes

Close your eyes..think about all the great things that happened in your life... and say Alhamdulillah. I just said goodbye to my house yesterday. We actually went through quite a hardship to move all the stuff out. Alhamdulillah, Allah never stopped giving me ways to pass over all the challenges. Alhamdulillah.. Adib is willing to ease our burden [despite the charge ;P]. Another reason to say Alhamdulillah- my research is nearing the completion despite the fact that this remaining 50% would not make any difference.. Alhamdulillah, I have nice friends who always welcome me with smiles and wonderful hospitality. Alhamdulillah I had a dream fulfilled. Alhamdulillah time moves so fast, I just can't wait to embrace ma and abah...that's the ultimate elation of all..oh Datuk Harimau, if you could make the clock ticking two times faster..

1. Bye bilik..

2. Bye rumah...

3. This is the ultimate. Bye Europe!!!

^_^

Bitter fact

While keying in data untuk research, tiba-tiba terasa nak analyse data lain. I check my music files dlm hard disk. See what had I discovered..
417 MB (437,780,638 bytes) [Nasheed songs+ Zikir]
14.6 GB (15,745,084,036 bytes) [English, Latin, Hindustan, Mandarin, Tagalog, Thai, & Malay songs yang melaghokan]

Meaningful mp3 in percentage= 2.7 [excluded quran+ceramah]
Xkesahla..whatever it is..
Selayaknya saya muhasabah diri

Apa nak jadi

Never had I listened to this song without having my heart weighted down by sorrow. Actually I'm so stressed out seeing my facebook newsfeed flooded with all sorts of crticism to our PM, his wife, daughter, the ruling party, their implementations..and the list goes on..everyday!! The majority of people who favour the opposition in particular keep judging the government, highlight every weakness as if there is nothing good done in Malaysia. You get the scholar from the ministry, you go to overseas and you show your stand. Hello kawan, controversies occur everywhere, not only in Malaysia. Nothing is purely clean when it comes to politics, be it in any party. How can we be so sure that what we read and what we hear from the politicians is 100% true? Everything is merely an empty boast. For the sake of money and status, even black can be perceived as white. If you want things to be changed, then change. If you are contented with what you receive all this while, then keep the loyalty to your self. No point condemning. When the time has come, make up your mind and x whom you trust. On that vote paper ok, not through Facebook pleaseeeee!! T,T