Back here or Back there :')

Dear diary,

Well the decision had been made. I have to erase my dream to receive my degree scroll in Pompey regardless the sweet pain of I am enduring remembering that lovely place. Yeah, there is no point thinking about it anymore, full stop. 

And only a moment ago I listened to this one song- Back Here by BBmak which really suits my sense of hearing. As usual, insufficient with the voice, I wanted to see the singers and watch the video clip. What I found at the end is just another haunting element that always reminds me of London. It seems to be accidental, but believe me, when there is too much coincidence, it would be a little worrying for me..little bit, just a tiny bit. 

Eheh.. Oh dear... :'(

BACK HERE 
BBMak

Baby, set me free from this misery 
I can't take it no more 
Since you ran away nothing's been the same 
Don't know what I'm living for 

Here I am so alone 
And there's nothing in this world I can do 

Until you're back here baby 
Miss you, want you, need you so 
Until you're back here baby, yeah 
There's a feeling inside I want you to know 
You are the one and I can't let you go 

So I told you lies, even made you cry 
Baby, I was so wrong 
Girl, I promise you now my love is true 
This is where my heart belongs 

'Cause here I am so alone 
And there's nothing in this world I can do 

Until you're back here baby 
Miss you, want you, need you so 
Until you're back here baby, yeah 
There's a feeling inside I want you to know 
You are the one and I can't let you go 

And I wonder
Are you thinking of me? 
'Cause I'm thinking of you 
And I wonder 
Are you ever coming back in my life? 

'Cause here I am so alone 
And there's nothing in this world I can do 

Until you're back here baby 
Miss you, want you, need you so 
Until you're back here baby, yeah 
There's a feeling inside I want you to know 
You are the one and I can't let you go

A Birthday Prank

Dear diary,

This morning I woke up with a pre-programmed mind- Viva perlu dicuci hari ini. The by-product from those filthy birds needs to be vanished before Sunday!" Yeah. Dalam berkira2 utk continue rolling in the blanket, Fifi sent a whatsapp text, "how about coming with me and vdaa to have a roti canai for breakfast?". Ohohoo dilemma. Should I go? Should I not? Yang mana lg precious, the relaxing 8am of my precious Friday morning or once in a while breakfast invitation from your friend? In a while I got dressed, then I was in Fifi's car with Nabila and Vdaa. Typical me of very hard to decline sb's invitation. Something worries me. I could not find my car key. Ada kot.. Must be somewhere. After that we went to the Pak Lah stall. Makan dgn tenang je.. Sedap je roti td. After going to carwash, Fifi drove us back to IPDA. Ok hati makin berserabut thinking of the car key. I looked for my viva, turned my head at one corner and almost fainted. That was roughly the onset. My car was not there!!!!!!! that lot was empty. Hei mana kereta saya!!!?? My eyes did not wait long to burst tears. Kereta kot.. There are so many expensive cars kat Bukit Indah tu. Oh please. Not my car, not a pauper's car!!! Nangis macam org gila kat carpark while vdaa Fifi and Bila were trying their best to calm myself down. I was not bothered by everybody around there. Abg guard yg bajet concern tu circulated around us quite a few times trying to understand the gist of the situation agaknya. I cried, cried and did nothing else but cried. All my nerve system was wrecked hancuss. I will die...before celebrating my birthday tomorrow... Lodge police report, ok what else? Call abah. Oh mati!

Then, Bila received a call from from Ipi and Aiman. She said Aiman saw my car at the Jabatan Bahasa. Kenapa pulak kereta sy bergerak sendiri ke sana? Who brought it there?? Thousand of whys showered, hundreds of question marks hanging, if at all that those were visible. I was so lethargic, all the calorie from the roti canai was burnt to process the 'precipitation' of my eyes. Ngee.. We walked to JB and saw my Viva. Seemed to be cuter than before. The most wanted sight to behold. Oh ya Allah... Rasa nak postulate sbb syukur sgt. Then Vdaa told me, "yuni ada surat saman!!" Hahhh?? 50 ringgit for placing car at the lecturer's lot! This is rubbish. Lawak ape nihhh!!?? Aaaaaaa!!! I bought nasi with hati ayam je to cut my budget. I use my money extremely sparingly. Ni rm50 plk utk saman!!???? Sedihnyaaaa!!!

"SURPRISE!!!! Happy birthday to you...(lalala..~~) happy birthday to you...~~~) squeaking voice of demons came out from the unknown corner with a blackforest cake.. Ipi, Adlyn, and Tazi muncul dgn muka separa bersalah. Ya Allah. And for the first time, I ate my birthday cake next to a drain. Girls.. I hate you.....!! But I love you more. Thanks for making my day! It was horrible yet so sweet, so joyous. I am touched! ^^ sometimes I think I wander lonely as a cloud, without realizing how the birds along the margin of bay who always make me smile! :) yeah, all luxuries that money can afford but not great company..tapi burung berdebah yg buat 'bisnes' kat kereta sy tuuuu.. Cheit kurang asam! >.<

Esok birthday..semakin tua... Makin tuaaaa... Hahaha
Fun stuff like birthdays wouldn't matter as much in the years to come. So I would rather enjoy my day tomorrow kekeke.

10 facts about the prophet Muhammad pbuh

The most wonderful usrah project this year for reaching the public with the aim of spreading the lovely facts about Rasulullah pbuh. While preparing the snacks and doing the cuttings of the messages I took the chance to skim through all the facts gathered. Some of those as follows had captivated my eyes :)

1. He encouraged the washing of hands before and after eating food (he promotes cleanliness and health)

2. He never hit a woman (he is a gentleman)

3. Nobody ever heard from him the words 'I do not like this food". He just ate the food he liked (he appreciates food) 

4. He trembled after reading the verses of affliction (his faith is tremendous)

5. He never used bad language (He has a good manner)

6. His face had been described as a full-moon with its roundness (Baraa bin Azib) (he's good looking) 

7. He would lay in prostration for such a long time that he was taken to be dead by the people close to him (He's loyal)

8. He stood in voluntary prayers so long that his legs swelled (he's being grateful)

9. He used to water animals by holding up a bucket of water (He's caring)

10. When he got angry while standing, he used to sit down and if it happened while he was sitting, he would lie down (He's patient)

Truly, he is the best example of mankind. ^^

 "You have indeed a good example in the Messenger of Allah (saws) for whosoever hopes for Allah and the Last Day, and remembers Allah much." (Qur'an Al-Ahzab: 21)

Teacher's Broken Heart Speaks

Sound check puff puff 1,2,3...
Dear students of 4B and 4SN, I dedicate this to you (luahan hati seorang guru yang meradang)

Why don't you do your homework?
Every night I sleep very late;
24 hours thinking of changing your fate.

Why don't you do your homework?
It is just a piece of essay;
I gave you 5 days and still you choose to delay?

Why don't you do your homework?
I don't mean to be rude
But I am so disappointed with your attitude

Why don't you do your homework?
10 questions shared by two;
Is it remain as a huge burden on you?

Why don't you do your homework?
I thought we had exchanged our pleasantry
The next day you came to me with your lame sorry

Why don't you do your homework?
You can say that your life is so busy,
Yet you are actually making my life easy.

Why don't you do your homework?
Can't you see that I am doing my bit?
Just to see you reach the summit

Practicum fever

Pre-practicum statements

Haiyo..come fast la January 12. We had enough of studying in the class for years. Cannot stand anymore. As long as there is a new stage, we are nearer to the work life already. More money plus more advancement in life :P Everyday lepak je.. how can being lives without any sense of purpose??tell me!

Post-practicum statements

I’d rather be in Mr Chee’s boring class for one whole day. Practicum is so tiring. It seems like we don’t have proper time to sleep. 24-7 my mind is thinking about what to do, what to teach, what to share with the students in the upcoming lesson. We are tied to all the school events, life uncertainty impedes planning for anything. The worst part, practicum has taken away all my friends. No more freedom. Sobs.. T.T

That is the picture of how the life of TESLian had evolved in such a drastic manner, I reckon, but don't get it wrong. Practicum is not that bad. The first week is always challenging for all the newbies to deal with. Every night we do the paper cuttings to prepare for the best teaching aid that can capture students' attention to participate in classroom activities. Above all, I enjoy teaching my 77 students from the classes which I can categorize as those of mediocre to average. I am also happy to be in that school with my dear colleagues- Viki and Oci. Another plus point on the other hand, I hate the part where we have to write on the RPH book as the evidence of our work. If at all that my father is the Education Minister, I will counter all the silly billy chores to be made compulsory (and I think Allah knows best for not making me to be one XD)

By far, I only can remember 6 names of the existing teachers and less than 10 names of my students. =,=''. What a slow progress..Teacher Ayuni ni..ish ish ish

Ahlan 2013

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ is the best opening of all.
I welcome you 2013 and I wish for barakah from Allah taala, more peace in the world, genuine smile from all parents, better and united Muslims, generous amount of charity, respect for women, and last but not least, more adventure and necessary 'big changes' in my life ^^