fear..?yes i am

My mood is not really stable lately. Reading the previous post makes me realize one thing about my current state that contradicts 360 degree.At the moment I'm actually in such an intense feeling of fear, scared, afraid, terrified, just name it. I'm scared that Allah will call my mom to go back to Him. She's sick, her body is weak and even the specialist can't give specific answer for that. Lately, she always mentions the word death, she has the feeling that she does not have much time. My heart cries every time when I hear that. Ya Allah, please increase our life. There are many things that I want to do for ma and abah. Plans and dreams that are not yet fulfilled. Only with your compassion, this pain will reduce. Give us time, give us space, give us chance Ya Allah. It is with the presence of ma and abah that I'm living to my hearts content. I'm really2 scared.. =(

For those who are reading this, please pray for my mom and don't forget to pray for yours too. Don't stop praying. That's the least that we can do. Doesn't matter if with just a small bit, let's try our best, try to show that we care for them.There's nothing wrong about demonstrating our love to parents, truly.

No Fear

First thing first..showing off ;P
[fifi..curi gambar ek]

Sunday-10/7/2011
Whoa..another record has been set yesterday, at Thorpe Park. London. I had overcome my fear to experience Europe's fastest roller coaster>>Stealth@Thorpe Park. That was the best achievement so far, under the
time-wasting+lagho type of activity. ;P. I just can't believe that I could experience the ride that I used to construct in my all-time favourite PC game- Roller coaster tycoon. At first, I told myself many times that I am not going to try Stealth. Xkesah la kalau org kata xremaja pun. No blame on me. It looks damn scary. Eventually, I convinced myself to give a try, and I have no regrets at all. It was such an unbelievably thrilling ride I've ever tried after the roller coasters in Disneyland. With the speed up to 80mph in less than 2 seconds, and the rail that looks almost reaching the sky..CRAZY!!To put in simpler words, you'll never know your limit before you force yourself. Fear is just a play in your mind.  Having too much fear at times can be counter productive.It should not be an obstacle in life. Pokok pangkalnya, acu cuba try test. Do whatever things that you think you can't as long as it would not bring any harm.

“Worry gives a small thing a big shadow.”

This explains enough, isn't it!? =D

Close your eyes

Close your eyes..think about all the great things that happened in your life... and say Alhamdulillah. I just said goodbye to my house yesterday. We actually went through quite a hardship to move all the stuff out. Alhamdulillah, Allah never stopped giving me ways to pass over all the challenges. Alhamdulillah.. Adib is willing to ease our burden [despite the charge ;P]. Another reason to say Alhamdulillah- my research is nearing the completion despite the fact that this remaining 50% would not make any difference.. Alhamdulillah, I have nice friends who always welcome me with smiles and wonderful hospitality. Alhamdulillah I had a dream fulfilled. Alhamdulillah time moves so fast, I just can't wait to embrace ma and abah...that's the ultimate elation of all..oh Datuk Harimau, if you could make the clock ticking two times faster..

1. Bye bilik..

2. Bye rumah...

3. This is the ultimate. Bye Europe!!!

^_^