The power of instinct

Dear diary,

Karnival Siswa IPDA datang lagi!! (Err pernah ada ke selama ni? :P). The 10-day event actually began with a nasheed concert- it reminds me of the UNIC concert trip that I had organized with Kak Cheq during our second week in MRSM PC (that was so cool Kak Cheq, we were just came to maktab, and had not been to all buildings yet in the campus, da pandai2 nak organize trip gara2 minat unic).

Only Allah knows how I was terrified with the practicum workload- lesson preparation and observation from a very particular supervisor like Madam Ranjini. While enduring the routine of preparing teaching materials, Tazi  or specifically the evil Tazi informed us about Nazrey who had already arrived at the hall.. Eh? Erm.. Ala.. Nazrey je pon. I continued typing my work half- heartedly.

Soon after that, I press the final button on the keyboard, hibernated my Asus, approached my wardrobe to grab blouse and tudung. Eh? Eh? What am I doing? Within a few minutes, I walked alone along the dark pedestrian.. Thrill la sgt..

To cut it short, I had a great time watching the performances. The best part was actually giving donation to Nazrey's project to build a tahfiz school in Sabah. That is actually the reason why he chose to quit from Raihan. While  taking his autograph, I said to Nazrey, "Ustaz, saya baca komik Kawan darjah 1 dulu. Dia tulis ustaz dulu kalau tine solat ustaz buat sakit perut". His reaction was- a true from heart ha ha ha plus nodding. It satisfied me.. Yes! Nazrey gelak..Ha ha ha :D

Well, how dows this can be linked to the title of this entry?
Actually my heart spoke to me right before Allah allowed the smooth idea flowing from my brain for the students' material. "There must be a good reason why I was made aware about the concert through Tazi" yang penting, niat kena baik.. Insya-Allah.. :)

Well, when Allah gives, it's a gift. When Allah witholds, that too is a gift" -Dr Umar

Tido jom!

Zzz

Iman adalah mutiara!!

Eh!

Zzz

Vdaa oh Vdaa

Dear diary,
I just want to say that I feel so happy and grateful for the girl on my right. She is a big fan of Helliza and Allah is so great for realizing her dreams to meet Helliza in person. Helliza is coming to IPDA and Vdaa is the person who is responsible to be her PA for two days. It is not about meeting a celebrity is the message I want to put across, but the passion she has and her great effort to fulfill the dream. If we want something, keep on praying and of course, once it is within our reach, just grab the opportunity!!


P/S: Vdaa, Yuni happy sgt utk Vdaa ^^

People pleaser-

Dear diary,

These few days I keep on searching for any article regarding personality that can best describe me. I simply want to know if there is any term that can clearly conclude my attitude which sometimes I myself am not able to comprehend. At last, I came across this term-people pleaser. It is said that people pleaser is a person who wants everyone around him to be happy and he will do whatever is asked of him to.. wohoo, pretty much close to my feeling.. :D I am not sure whether this kind of attitude is exceptionally and entirely positive or not. I can say that saying yes is more to an addiction if that can contribute to someone else's life. I will always try my best to help people, or at least justify so that they will not get upset. The researcher who wrote that article explains further that a people pleaser risk himself because essentially he can get enervated for doing too much and perhaps due to the inner incapability of thinking too much and overload because of the possibility that you can't do everything..
Well, now I am planning for Fifi's bachelorette night at Darulaman Regency Hotel, this perhaps to make up for our non attendance..do the bookings, gearing the girls who are partly not so eager to discuss..Yeah, I am quite upset for not being able to attend Fifi's wedding, quiet upset for not having friends who are willing to sacrifice for her. I know I have no right to feel bad for others..I know that in life we need to know how to prioritise things, certain thing is not worth the sacrifice...uhuhu... It is just that I think Fifi's big day is supposed to be a compulsory thing and she must be happy if her friends are with her on that day.. Ya Allah, why must I think too much? OK, this is an indisputable proof..
Ayuni,,wake up!! You are such a fool people pleaser..!! dah laaa!! T,T

wish list

Dear diary,

Yesterday, the gems of my life, Abah and Ma left to the holy city of Mecca for umrah. Alhamdulillah, the gracious Him gave another opportunity for them to be there once again. I am so pleased when they said to me that they wanted to perform umrah. Despite the bittersweet situation that they broke the promise of bringing me there..sobs, I feel happy for them, and of course in years to come i will be asking for a rain check >.<

I witnessed how they put effort to save the money, work hard in handling the guest houses, how they jogged around the housing area of ours to gain stamina..hehe. They are in their early 60's but insha-Allah, they are physically capable of doing all the rites involved in umrah.. and ma, she is quite weak, relying on pills everyday, but she carries herself with determination and strong intention. Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah. 

Abah asked me once, Yuni nak suruh abah doa ape?? I simply replied, ape2 je yang terbaik untuk Yuni..heehe. Abah, actually I have lots of things to be requested earnestly from Allah, perhaps can you ask all of these in front of Kaabah? >,<

1. Abah and ma remain healthy

2. First class degree (I really doubt with the number of As I got so far,,,will there be hope still?) T.T

3. Being someone's mrs before the age of 27.. 1.5.2015//hehe ok berangan la setinggi everest

4. Finish my Masters study before becoming 30

5. Lose more weight...erk...uhuk2

6. To be able to memorize more surah

7. I want to be posted in considerably civilised and safe area next year

8. I want my children to have fair complexion..oh no..will that be possible?:D

9. I want to live in the UK again, for academic reason, with my own family

10. ultimately...I want to enter the garden of everlasting happiness.. syurga Adnin, adorned with pearls, dressed in silk..wahhh Subhanallah..

OK abah..this seems too much. Tolong doakan.. "my daughter Ayuni wants to be happy, in whatever way that seems best for her. Amin.. "

Take care abah..take care ma. Semoga perjalanan abah and ma diberkati-Nya. I love you more than anything in this world :)

Mi Estudiantes

Dear students, 

I hope you are doing fine today, tomorrow and the whole week after. I'll be back on the  February 24th. Don't forget the 'ang pow' that I gave you the other day. If you don't.. you mess up with a wrong person!! Watch out!! :)

Regards,

Teacher Ayuni

Hoho..bajet students tahu je blog ni kan.. I guess I miss them..ye ke..ye kot :')

Reflection

Dear diary,

Quite a lot of good things came to me since early in the morning till early morning on the next day. We had a cross country at school. Getting to know Cikgu Fadzil who is so kind and rich with good-fellowship was the kickstart of the day. Together with him and Viki, we were asked to be at the checkpoint two. Seeing all the boys among the f4 and form fivers was kinda a funny moments. Ada yg berlari ngn afro hair, shirtless la, superman t-shirt. My students came to me and shouted "teacherrrrr ayuniiii!!" followed with smile mcm budak2 miang..lol..and grabbed the rubber band. Macam2 ragam diorang nii..... ^^ Quite a number of my students managed to bring back medals as how they promised yesterday.. I am impressed...teacher kagum ni ngn kalian smuaaa!!! They all have great potentials that require somebody to enable them seeing it... I BELIEVE!!

After the prize giving ceremony..there was this nice teacher pulling my hand all of a sudden , brought me to one corner at the stage and tried to fire me with all sorts of questions about my personal life. sgt pelik... She smiled...she asked a bit of what will be my expectations for my husband.ore kelate ko gapo...when I said xde kriteria pon akak..asalkan baik...and oh good, she pat on my back and she smiled again...err is my jodoh going to appear in the nearest time? Allah akan plan segalanya.. jaga hati..jaga hati...save for him. Saya akan perbaiki diri and Allah knows when is the right moment and who is the right person. I BELIEVE...

Second, our journey back to Kelantan was fun. The personas who were responsible to make me laugh all the time of course Adib and Vdaa. Vdaa dgn teknik pangkahan and sakatan yg endless, plus adib with his laptop and lagu2 pelbagai. In fact I am so pleased that he knew quite a lot of my fav songs..Yuni..ni lagu yuni..yuni ni pon lagu yuni...haha Adib tahu laaa.. isk2 rakan bergaduh ni sweet jgk kadang2 :D
They both made great company of mine. Rasa xpnt pon although it was entirely up on me to drive them home.. x apa...jnji selamat smua... (err in fact tgh malam di hutan belantara highway timur -barat with the setting of heavy rain tu sgt scary...cuak2..) I believe I can survive with my friends around. Plus, bacalah bismillah yg besar for 7 times. Actually when the kids were sleeping, a Hilux splashed the rainwater on my car and my car actually almost kissed the back of that Hilux..ngeee...the power of remembering Allah.. I BELIEVE!!

We reached Pasir Puteh around 12 midnight...That night, when I was resting on the bed with Vdaa, came another scene from Anis...There was a birthday gift on my study table.. Tersangat lah comel.tersangatlah meaningful...isk2. Sometimes, Allah akan salurkan kegembiraan dari celahan2 yg tidak disangka-sangka...I BELIEVE.....:)

Just now I had my regular post-breakfast chat with Anis after one month of separation. A common issue touched was friendship and life, whether or not that we feel happy and contented, whether or not that we dwell on problem. I said to her, we must always be good, help people around with the utmost sincerity. Insha-Allah will repay with something greater...I has been happening so many times for me..betulll.Kak Yuni xtipuu.. ^^ I belieeeeeeeve....~~ I believe..........~~

Back here or Back there :')

Dear diary,

Well the decision had been made. I have to erase my dream to receive my degree scroll in Pompey regardless the sweet pain of I am enduring remembering that lovely place. Yeah, there is no point thinking about it anymore, full stop. 

And only a moment ago I listened to this one song- Back Here by BBmak which really suits my sense of hearing. As usual, insufficient with the voice, I wanted to see the singers and watch the video clip. What I found at the end is just another haunting element that always reminds me of London. It seems to be accidental, but believe me, when there is too much coincidence, it would be a little worrying for me..little bit, just a tiny bit. 

Eheh.. Oh dear... :'(

BACK HERE 
BBMak

Baby, set me free from this misery 
I can't take it no more 
Since you ran away nothing's been the same 
Don't know what I'm living for 

Here I am so alone 
And there's nothing in this world I can do 

Until you're back here baby 
Miss you, want you, need you so 
Until you're back here baby, yeah 
There's a feeling inside I want you to know 
You are the one and I can't let you go 

So I told you lies, even made you cry 
Baby, I was so wrong 
Girl, I promise you now my love is true 
This is where my heart belongs 

'Cause here I am so alone 
And there's nothing in this world I can do 

Until you're back here baby 
Miss you, want you, need you so 
Until you're back here baby, yeah 
There's a feeling inside I want you to know 
You are the one and I can't let you go 

And I wonder
Are you thinking of me? 
'Cause I'm thinking of you 
And I wonder 
Are you ever coming back in my life? 

'Cause here I am so alone 
And there's nothing in this world I can do 

Until you're back here baby 
Miss you, want you, need you so 
Until you're back here baby, yeah 
There's a feeling inside I want you to know 
You are the one and I can't let you go