Abah...ma..

I really hope that you can hear this :')

Mental anguish or so-called serabut palo

My blog is left unmoved for almost a month. It is not that I don't have things to be shared but in fact the urge to do that is not there. You know at one point when you have a new gadget it seems that you have the tendency to get attached to it and forget about other things, maybe that is the state where I am at the moment. I sold my iPod off and grabbed an iPhone. I took up watching 'small TV' under my duvet, spend so much time on social networking site, unnecessarily. What I used to do had been abandoned. It is awkward too by not having a diary for this year regardless there are lots of things to be noted and remembered. I know I am not stable. I am so fragile despite the fact that I act normally in front of others. I am so busy with my academic work, social duties which I myself am not sure why do I say yes to so much responsibilities, starting from performing during One World Week, managing props, kursus kahwin, catering paid guests for two weeks and so and so. Not just that, it's quite disappointing too that I waste hundred pounds over on my flight tickets to Athens this April which I assumed to be my last outing abroad before flying back home permanently. My mind is also choked off by worry thinking of do I have enough saving to receive 10 of my family members who are expected to arrive by the end of May. It is not just about money, but whether or not they will be comfortable staying at my house during that holiday period. Last but not least, I could not help acting cool despite my 10,000 word dissertation has no progress since a past month. What a sudden twinge of guilt. Indeed, I really need a wake up call. This March and April will be utilized maximally insha-Allah. Jia you Ayuni!

Jadual Puasa 2012

Jazakillah for those who worked in sorting out the calendar. May Allah bestow His blessings on you.

Charles Dicken's 200th Birthday

I was walking from the Angelsea building with Bin Jun. Suddenly there was a gentleman riding on the Victorian bicycle towards us. I knew that my birthday was over but they do not have to remind me how the olden times can suit me perfectly :D

Happy 200th brithday Mr Charles Dicken- the famous writer of A Christmas Carol, Oliver Twist and A Tale of Two Cities. I have read none but I know that he was born in Portsmouth :D

Friday the 13th

My 2012 is now begin, after Friday the 13th. 

Seronok mengenangkan 5 course works yg menentukan kualiti degree berjaya dihantar smlm

:)

Finishing line

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Another 2 hours before I can have the last sheet of my calendar hanging. The end of the 2011 approaching so fast, as if it can't wait to see all the living things grow older. Thinking about what I did in the past, I am not really sure which part that I should be proud at, might be traveling? hurm, fair enough, nothing more than adding photos in the collections, strike a few more place names in my target list, and last but no least a lil bit of patience in handling unpredictable challenges in life. Insya-Allah, if I were to be left alone in unknown place, I would rather seek for help before shedding tears.. possibly. When it comes to taking risk, I think I had much improvement in that sense. Firmer belief that the obstacles can be faced head-on.. ^^

Capturing the changes of sky in Portsmouth in less then 10 minutes. Subhanallah..

Truly, I really enjoyed 2011 due to so much imposing things happened not only to me, but people who are significant in my life. Stories that hurt, stories than hard to be forgotten, stories that brought about changes, all complete just like assorted candy mix. Some might have horrible taste but that's what make up a slightly more expensive pack. Not quite sure what's gonna inspire me in 2012. The most sensational moment might be the middle of next year, the moment when I have to pull my bag and leave Portsmouth forever. There's no expectation, but what comes in my prayer everyday is for my study in Portsmouth Uni to be ended successfully, then I can go back to go through the remaining bits left in Malaysia. As maturity brings more affairs, definitely, 2012 is going to lead me through complex route. One thing that we must always believe, what has been planned by Allah is always the best for us.

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year

Enjoy the new cycle, savour every moment,

and may the fresh transition will be a turning point for stronger iman and taqwa

Kids Versus Adults

Last night a not-so-funny incident happened. It was all started with Miss A who took Miss B's iPhone without permission, hacked her FB account and eventually posted unnecessary stuff that you can ever imagine- cheap status such as [I'm cute, Am I cute? I feel cute, and such and such]- I wasn't quite sure because I was away from that scene. Miss B who happened to be the victim was pissed off and uttered this one sentence which I think absolutely reasonable.

"Wei xpayah la nak bergurau macam ni,,kita dah besar ok!"

Of course I have no objection about this matter. We are adults, and for that reason we have to act accordingly. It is quite hard to control our attitude at some points, sometimes we enjoy being childlike whilst others might regard is as no-no. I think this could be a good example of shibboleth- personality wise the decision of how to act is capricious. You must know your audience, time and at the same time be clever to expect certain possible outcomes. Reaction of other people is unpredictable, but we still can control ourselves, can't we? No matter what, I feel sorry for Miss A too but it's a good lesson though =_=''

Off topic !! Just had half the perfect dinner and I saw this on facebook. Uploading Krispy Kreme donut menu list on facebook when winter is about to begin can be the most evil thing that a man can ever do...!! Can somebody order 1 chocolate iced creme filled and deliver it to my room?? :D

Enjoy your winter
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