Uk again

Yes, this was the greatest event of 2018 in which I think should be kept here. Allah brought me to UK again for 5 remarkable nights. Alhamdulillah

Butterfly

Dear book,

Page 365 is today
I have been anticipating this final page just to put it back
Probably on the highest shelf
Probably to be buried in the deepest level down the ground

For what I know, the 365 days compiled wondrous journey
With the grace from none other than Him
I make it through a year that witnesses
All the struggles in the cocoon of my very own

In the process, I spin all the way
Indeed, the process to morph wasn’t that easy
To start anew
I wish a totally new story is written

The past is the past
let it pass
I gonna look straight to the future
To fly as the very best version of me
For tomorrow onwards

Despite the beauty maybe in the butterfly
The growth in fact happens in the cocoon
I am glad I was once inside
Between the written pages
🦋

Belle

Dear diary,
I went out from school to see Nabila just now. Upon seeing her eyes in tears, mine did the same too.
Sedih. Hanya Tuhan yg tahu...

T.T

entah bila akan hilang rasa sedih ini

Keep real

Dear diary,

The evening dinner with Kak Ain just now made me realize about the idea of being realistic in life. No matter how bitter life gets, the fact that accepting what is real is very crucial. It is the real life that we are living, and that probably makes absolute sense how we as human should express awareness of things as they are. It is the right time Ayuni... to be awakened by the line separating reality and fantasy. Despite being fine, it is visible if you choose to acknowledge it.


So yeah
8.8.18

Berakhirlah sudah

Dear diary,
 Just now we had a midnight deive. It was something that I had been wanting, yet the feeling was totally different. Good and bad things keep coming alternatingly. I will stop putting any hope, or else you will make yourself hurt deep. The path is less vague now. Ayuni has no other choice than moving on with life.


Tonight, ma probaby got what she had been praying for. That is the best for me forever.
Alhamdulillah for everything he plans.

eyes watching

Dear diary,

Have you experienced trying to do a wrong thing and it turns out that Allah acts better on overturning your plan? Yeah it happened to me a while ago. I had a blow because I managed to witness how Allah  will halt me from doing something wrong. I thought by planning everything well will sugarcoat my real intention. Ayuni, you never know how great Allah can be and how weak you are as a decision maker. I want to keep it here as a good reminder for my awful self, the so called holier than thou self . Happy CNY, may this new year shape me better. Amin
🍊🍊