fear..?yes i am

My mood is not really stable lately. Reading the previous post makes me realize one thing about my current state that contradicts 360 degree.At the moment I'm actually in such an intense feeling of fear, scared, afraid, terrified, just name it. I'm scared that Allah will call my mom to go back to Him. She's sick, her body is weak and even the specialist can't give specific answer for that. Lately, she always mentions the word death, she has the feeling that she does not have much time. My heart cries every time when I hear that. Ya Allah, please increase our life. There are many things that I want to do for ma and abah. Plans and dreams that are not yet fulfilled. Only with your compassion, this pain will reduce. Give us time, give us space, give us chance Ya Allah. It is with the presence of ma and abah that I'm living to my hearts content. I'm really2 scared.. =(

For those who are reading this, please pray for my mom and don't forget to pray for yours too. Don't stop praying. That's the least that we can do. Doesn't matter if with just a small bit, let's try our best, try to show that we care for them.There's nothing wrong about demonstrating our love to parents, truly.

No Fear

First thing first..showing off ;P
[fifi..curi gambar ek]

Sunday-10/7/2011
Whoa..another record has been set yesterday, at Thorpe Park. London. I had overcome my fear to experience Europe's fastest roller coaster>>Stealth@Thorpe Park. That was the best achievement so far, under the
time-wasting+lagho type of activity. ;P. I just can't believe that I could experience the ride that I used to construct in my all-time favourite PC game- Roller coaster tycoon. At first, I told myself many times that I am not going to try Stealth. Xkesah la kalau org kata xremaja pun. No blame on me. It looks damn scary. Eventually, I convinced myself to give a try, and I have no regrets at all. It was such an unbelievably thrilling ride I've ever tried after the roller coasters in Disneyland. With the speed up to 80mph in less than 2 seconds, and the rail that looks almost reaching the sky..CRAZY!!To put in simpler words, you'll never know your limit before you force yourself. Fear is just a play in your mind.  Having too much fear at times can be counter productive.It should not be an obstacle in life. Pokok pangkalnya, acu cuba try test. Do whatever things that you think you can't as long as it would not bring any harm.

“Worry gives a small thing a big shadow.”

This explains enough, isn't it!? =D

Close your eyes

Close your eyes..think about all the great things that happened in your life... and say Alhamdulillah. I just said goodbye to my house yesterday. We actually went through quite a hardship to move all the stuff out. Alhamdulillah, Allah never stopped giving me ways to pass over all the challenges. Alhamdulillah.. Adib is willing to ease our burden [despite the charge ;P]. Another reason to say Alhamdulillah- my research is nearing the completion despite the fact that this remaining 50% would not make any difference.. Alhamdulillah, I have nice friends who always welcome me with smiles and wonderful hospitality. Alhamdulillah I had a dream fulfilled. Alhamdulillah time moves so fast, I just can't wait to embrace ma and abah...that's the ultimate elation of all..oh Datuk Harimau, if you could make the clock ticking two times faster..

1. Bye bilik..

2. Bye rumah...

3. This is the ultimate. Bye Europe!!!

^_^

Bitter fact

While keying in data untuk research, tiba-tiba terasa nak analyse data lain. I check my music files dlm hard disk. See what had I discovered..
417 MB (437,780,638 bytes) [Nasheed songs+ Zikir]
14.6 GB (15,745,084,036 bytes) [English, Latin, Hindustan, Mandarin, Tagalog, Thai, & Malay songs yang melaghokan]

Meaningful mp3 in percentage= 2.7 [excluded quran+ceramah]
Xkesahla..whatever it is..
Selayaknya saya muhasabah diri

Apa nak jadi

Never had I listened to this song without having my heart weighted down by sorrow. Actually I'm so stressed out seeing my facebook newsfeed flooded with all sorts of crticism to our PM, his wife, daughter, the ruling party, their implementations..and the list goes on..everyday!! The majority of people who favour the opposition in particular keep judging the government, highlight every weakness as if there is nothing good done in Malaysia. You get the scholar from the ministry, you go to overseas and you show your stand. Hello kawan, controversies occur everywhere, not only in Malaysia. Nothing is purely clean when it comes to politics, be it in any party. How can we be so sure that what we read and what we hear from the politicians is 100% true? Everything is merely an empty boast. For the sake of money and status, even black can be perceived as white. If you want things to be changed, then change. If you are contented with what you receive all this while, then keep the loyalty to your self. No point condemning. When the time has come, make up your mind and x whom you trust. On that vote paper ok, not through Facebook pleaseeeee!! T,T

Suatu ketika dahulu..

Assalamualaikum wbt..Sunday..another day goes by after the school placement. I keep staring at the research folder on my desk. One contains the questionnaires while the other keeps some journals. They are resting there, without any single physical motion, remain untouched. Research and its entire dimension is so uninteresting, or should I say deadening? Let them rest right there for a while till the moment when I'll sacrifice my heart and soul to complete this final assignment. Ya ku so ku! (^_^)


I feel like sharing something about nickname. Have you ever had a quirky one? I've been called once as Wally, the nickname which was 'inspired' by an animal which is Walrus. It's strange but true. Don't know why my friend group in form 3 had quite an amazing and creative minds. Hebat2..  My group was like  Sailormoon. We labelled ourselves CUMIL (Noun) and Cumilian (Adjective). There's no issue about who's copying who. We are not as cute as Usagi and friends. The battle that we fought was in PMR, plus, we are covered..=D. Here are the members of CUMIL

1. Ayuni (Wally) Walrus
2. Afifah (Not sure about her gelaran,,) I think hers is also tenuk..ye ke tak..?
3. Nabilah (Chibi)  Chibi Maruko Chan- Really don't understand till at this moment of typing, why on earth is  her gelaran having the origin that is a way cuter than others..aik!!??
4. Fatin Farhana (Platty) Platipus- Cute meter: -5%
5. Akma (Magong) Dugong- This is the worst, I believe..haha. Cute meter: unreadable
6. Farah (Eten) Tenuk- Farah tried to make it sounds cuter. I think she did that successfully..pon xpuas hati
7. Ainun (Unknown gelaran..). Cute meter is unused
Our group is actually based on any cute 'things'. We also have our own only-we-understand-when-to-use terms, such as 'cudit', 'zurik', 'shrukk2'. Nabilah is so expert in this, not only in medicine and pills..

 Ok, this is walrus. It's hideous

Tenuk..hurm  cute meter: 65%

And for Nabilah, how cute Chibi is.

LIFE is UNFAIR! >_<

More memory to be reminisced...

1) Tok Bali- 2009

2) @Chibi's casa

3) Reunion cake

Pompeyans gathering at Blenheim Court

[Caution: Reading with empty stomach might cause an unplanned aggravation =D ]

Following the routine of the Brits, spring is not just a blooming season, yet seeing BBQ pits and grill all around fields and gardens are also common. It's ubiquitous I'd say. The people here love to have an outdoor BBQ moments together. In the eyes people who love to mix around with others, and of course the barbecue lover such as my uncle, they'll regard spring as a grilling season. It will be complete when the scent of chickens, kebabs plus the nice barbecue skewers are unified with the scent of flowers. Err, am I being too expressive here? Hehe..keen to share the scene of BBQ+potluck feast in Pompey. This time kak Mel's family were honoured to host the makan2 event at the Blenheim Court. Can you smelllll what the grill is grilling?

Where there's a cake, there's a kid =D. Damia and her sister ready to 'terkam' the cakes

Meats sizzling..mouth drooling

Sanju's birthday cupcakes, the ones that were so beckoning. Cayalah Kak Mel!!

Darwisha was having her own private moment and space

My first time eating the real vegetable skewers but had a wide experience of preparing skewers from Cooking Academy XD

Ibu-ibu bapak-bapak anak-anak

The small family of Pompey