Tuesday, July 23, 2013
5K4
Day 5 at the school. Apa yg boleh dikatakan, 5K4 masih dlm top ranking kelas yg plg mencabar. Sedih mengenangkan 7 heroes tu. Handsome sihat semua tapi xnk belajar, membaca xlancar, critical sangat. Rasa kesian bila tgk cikgu lain yg msk kelas tu membawa magazine, selak3 bunyi je loceng keluar. If 5 tahun dlm kls akhir n layanan cikgu mcm tu, so what can be concluded, tidak akan berlakunya sebarang pembinaan utk kemajuan. Smlm bila tanya ada buku je x they just replied kitorg dtg sekolah xperlu buku. Too bad =.=..zz. Bila sy nk koyak buku sdiri br diorg kalut nk keluarkn apa2 kertas bwh meja. Berjaya ajar adverb of manners ngn contoh yg mudah. Alhamdulillah depa stay kat tmpt duduk slm 40 mnt tanpa usha2 girls kat luar, bergaduh or buat perangai. Tadi bila nak ajar membaca, sy tanya smlm mcm mn nak ckp psl verb? 2,3 org answered ly..ly.. "Walk slowlyy".. Rasa sebak. Jadi la tahu sikit. Happy sgt. Lebih bermakna dr merit. Semoga usaha ini dipermudahkanNya. 5K4 sangat perlu dibantu. Sangat yg teramat.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Confusion
I am now trapped in a state of confusion. I find myself disoriented in a sense of future planning. Yes, the place where I will be posted really matters to design the pattern of life that I gonna live. I wish I can work in Kelantan, but there are a few times that I want to migrate like how abah did. Go somewhere else, meet new people,live in new surroundings. Being away for a few years somehow had changed the way I think. Nevertheless, it is absolutely wrong to say that I am mentally prepared to be sent to Sabah or Sarawak. Those states never exist in my mind, nor my eyes to imagine. I want to take care of my parents but Kelantan is not the land where I wanted my house poles being erected. No, I don't want. When abah said the principal of Sekolah Menengah Sains Pasir Puteh is interested to arrange that I will serve at that a school, what can I see in my eyes is nothing. It is all dark, lonely, and quiet. That sounds good if than nothing, but I just don't want to be here as early as 24. Give me life for 1 year or 2, at least before I have my own family. Once in Kelantan, will always be in Kelantan. Abah will get really upset if he knows this. I know. That might be a reason too that I don't want to show my excitement. It is very hard to tell, but if only abah knows what is hidden in my mind T.T no, tak nak. Please I don't want.
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Thursday, July 11, 2013
little by little
4.03 am
Take 5..8 pages to go..
Energy is slowly dying out..
Sat na cheq,, I shall give you one nice break wahai laptop.
(***Psst..Dr Izzati Zahari, in case awok napok ni,,pnh dgr x lagu ni? Rsnya thp best dio sama level ngn insan bernama kekasih dh :-)
My Chemical Romance
When I was a young boy,My father took me into the city,To see a marching band,He said "son when you grow up"Will you be the saviour of the broken,The beaten and the damned
He said will you defeat themYour demons and all the non-believersThe plans that they have made..
-_-_and this all time fav song ends here_-_-
To that particular dad, should I give my response on behalf of your son?Yeah demons their comrades are not around in Ramadhan. They are locked up somewhere, with their legs chained. Al-Bukhari confirmed that. The gates of Paradise are open whereas the gates of Hellfire are closed.
But.. I've been defeated instead
Why does the thought keep coming in my terawikh..obviously not the plan of demons??Is it another form of image, dream in the past, or something occult, perhaps beautiful, long2 time ago, for sure not so significant yet remain steady in this mind...
I just want a better tomorrow, specifically a better terawikh tomorrow.
~~Krikk2~~
He said will you defeat themYour demons and all the non-believersThe plans that they have made..
-_-_and this all time fav song ends here_-_-
To that particular dad, should I give my response on behalf of your son?Yeah demons their comrades are not around in Ramadhan. They are locked up somewhere, with their legs chained. Al-Bukhari confirmed that. The gates of Paradise are open whereas the gates of Hellfire are closed.
But.. I've been defeated instead
Why does the thought keep coming in my terawikh..obviously not the plan of demons??Is it another form of image, dream in the past, or something occult, perhaps beautiful, long2 time ago, for sure not so significant yet remain steady in this mind...
I just want a better tomorrow, specifically a better terawikh tomorrow.
~~Krikk2~~
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
:')
Assalamualaikum Encik or Cik diary (or unisex kah? :D)
Cerita hari ni perlu dikongsi. Memandangkan printed diary is prone to the heartless pest, i tnink it would be nice to be immortalized here. Safe, private, insya-Allah selamat je. Or maybe dgn pembaca dr Klang itu juga. (I guess I know who..u told me once kt London dulu you own a secret blog.unfair... T.T). Dengan niat utk membuka mata sesiapa shj yg stumble upon this site, Sorry rojak sikit post ni.
"You need to migrate yuni if you want to work" viki ckp
"Kelantan ni xde pape ma...org xpentingkn education.lagi excited nk raya kot dr nk hire tutor. lain la kat KL nuu. Mana ada culture tutor dtg rmh mcm org kaya2 kat sini.."saya cakap
"kak yuni masak je utk abah.hujung bulan abah bagi elaun sara diri 3,4 ratus" abah ckp
Semua quotes yg tidak memotivasikan diri menghantui 3,4 hari ni. Job offer plk mengajar Fizik form 5..the subject that I hate the most. Cuba jgk tgk balik buku tu..yes, looks like the content are all written in urdu scripts. Haremm tak faham satu apa.Xigt, x confident after a few times that I tried to remarry the Fokus U Fizik yg tebal tu. Maaf Cikgu Zainal.Ilmu cikgu bagi xlekat T.T
Suffice to say, saya blame nasib diri yg dilahirkan di tmpt yg kurengg 'money booming'. Apatah lg bila rakan2 seprjuangan bukan main aktif menjadi guru ganti..Seriously xde cigu beranak di daerah ini selain cikgu Fizik tu?? T.T. Stress jugak dgn nature sy yg suka komitmen. Betul kata Ipi :D
Dipendekkan cerita, hari ini bermula dgn kecergasan as early as 7 am. Dapat call dr kwn yg maybe ada mutual desire untuk borak2..And I got to know about his family history yg pernah berniaga kecil kecilan which is totally out of my mind by looking at who he is today. Kat situ dah rs mcm oh wow, spirit boosting sgt...sgt. I look back at my life,,,xprnh rasa kaya but at least xprnh rs susah. Dr kecil set colour pencil Luna tu ada, maybe 12 bukan set 36, tp at least colour pencils tu xpernah xde.
Selepas itu..sy submit thesis Yanti. Tgh hari tu parents balik tunjuk beg.Sgt random mak belikan skirt sehelai,,wah terharu.Abah suruh belikan..huu TQ Abah.sgt comel.. Yup, niat nk krgkn pakaiseluar. Ladies will be nicer in skirt...sopan sikit kot. And I told myself at that moment nak let go baju Polo yg obviously pendek, x ikut sunnah n if pakai kena angkat tudung nk nampak kuda polo tu.Saya akan pakai kalau tergantung dlm almari so better benda disappear for my own good,.hajat nk jual n tup2 dtg pula seorg brother ni nk beli direct kat rmh. Semudah ABC birthday present Pompey itu berpindah pemilik for RM100 walaupun sedih thinking of hours spent pusing RL kat Gunwharf tu.sorg2 plk tu...Syukur lagi.. :)) After that, Yanti sms dgn penuh kegembiraan dgtn thesis nya yg barangkali dh berubah ke arah positif sikit. Maybe dia terus berlari2 riang ke bank untuk byr. dlm 15 minit mcm tu terus bank in. OK alhamdulillah again..
Masuk bilik, dpt sms plk dr Pusat Tusyen Wassis. Sila dtg segera mengisi borang. Kami mengalu-alukan kedatangan cik..Ommo..yes yes!! seronoknya. This gonna be my FIRST organization that I gonna work with. Sekolah tu xkira..xsabar nak register esk. 4 days without reply, alih2 ada. sapa la yg send tu, encik or cik betul2 kacak n lawa di mata sy.sumpah!
Positive meter masih menyala2 bila Yanti contact lg. Kawan dia plk rs tercabar n nak jugak her writing to be proofread. n i said fine.Pukul 6 petang tu Ipi plk tanya free tak kalau ada org nk upah proofread..Rasa nak peluk jugak Ipi,, yeyyyyyy. Pukul 9 mlm td, I gave my 100 hasil proofreading yg pertama to my parents. In fact xkesah pon duit..hoho.amik la ma 50 n abah 50.nampak muka terharu/diorg. I slowly entered my room n dr dlm pon dgr lg ma plan nk beli apa with that money..mama tanya lg betul ke nk bg ni, your effort kot//n i shout dgn macho..amik la ma..it's fine.i believe this will generate more rezeki..gelak2 sikit.
Ok, sambung2 check thesis kawan Yanti sampai pkl 2, Jenuh gk nk handle thesis yg ni..tp terus jgk sbb da jnji ini malam juga akan submit. dkt nk tido tu dpt plk email dr tuition job. satu website yg sy rs 2% je possibility ada org nak cr tutot kelate..daerah pasir puteh yg terpencil plk tu.and I finally saw this "Akak cr tutor utk anak akak. Akak dr Wangsa Maju tapi akak nak puasa kat Gong Kulim Pasir Puteh sepanjang Ramadhan. Akak xnk pelajaran anak akak ni terabai..dia mix malay chinese scottish, Harap dpt mengajar 2-3 jam sehari" Ya Allah...xsgka ada..2-3 jam sehari..sepanjang Ramadhan. What else that I want? Definitely, it is going to be great..
1. Ini rezeki Ramadhan
2. Kena yakin dgn rezeki Allah
3. Buat apa-pun kena ikhlas
4. Lapangkanlah hati parents dengan semudah-mudah cara
Cerita hari ni perlu dikongsi. Memandangkan printed diary is prone to the heartless pest, i tnink it would be nice to be immortalized here. Safe, private, insya-Allah selamat je. Or maybe dgn pembaca dr Klang itu juga. (I guess I know who..u told me once kt London dulu you own a secret blog.unfair... T.T). Dengan niat utk membuka mata sesiapa shj yg stumble upon this site, Sorry rojak sikit post ni.
"You need to migrate yuni if you want to work" viki ckp
"Kelantan ni xde pape ma...org xpentingkn education.lagi excited nk raya kot dr nk hire tutor. lain la kat KL nuu. Mana ada culture tutor dtg rmh mcm org kaya2 kat sini.."saya cakap
"kak yuni masak je utk abah.hujung bulan abah bagi elaun sara diri 3,4 ratus" abah ckp
Semua quotes yg tidak memotivasikan diri menghantui 3,4 hari ni. Job offer plk mengajar Fizik form 5..the subject that I hate the most. Cuba jgk tgk balik buku tu..yes, looks like the content are all written in urdu scripts. Haremm tak faham satu apa.Xigt, x confident after a few times that I tried to remarry the Fokus U Fizik yg tebal tu. Maaf Cikgu Zainal.Ilmu cikgu bagi xlekat T.T
Suffice to say, saya blame nasib diri yg dilahirkan di tmpt yg kurengg 'money booming'. Apatah lg bila rakan2 seprjuangan bukan main aktif menjadi guru ganti..Seriously xde cigu beranak di daerah ini selain cikgu Fizik tu?? T.T. Stress jugak dgn nature sy yg suka komitmen. Betul kata Ipi :D
Dipendekkan cerita, hari ini bermula dgn kecergasan as early as 7 am. Dapat call dr kwn yg maybe ada mutual desire untuk borak2..And I got to know about his family history yg pernah berniaga kecil kecilan which is totally out of my mind by looking at who he is today. Kat situ dah rs mcm oh wow, spirit boosting sgt...sgt. I look back at my life,,,xprnh rasa kaya but at least xprnh rs susah. Dr kecil set colour pencil Luna tu ada, maybe 12 bukan set 36, tp at least colour pencils tu xpernah xde.
Selepas itu..sy submit thesis Yanti. Tgh hari tu parents balik tunjuk beg.Sgt random mak belikan skirt sehelai,,wah terharu.Abah suruh belikan..huu TQ Abah.sgt comel.. Yup, niat nk krgkn pakaiseluar. Ladies will be nicer in skirt...sopan sikit kot. And I told myself at that moment nak let go baju Polo yg obviously pendek, x ikut sunnah n if pakai kena angkat tudung nk nampak kuda polo tu.Saya akan pakai kalau tergantung dlm almari so better benda disappear for my own good,.hajat nk jual n tup2 dtg pula seorg brother ni nk beli direct kat rmh. Semudah ABC birthday present Pompey itu berpindah pemilik for RM100 walaupun sedih thinking of hours spent pusing RL kat Gunwharf tu.sorg2 plk tu...Syukur lagi.. :)) After that, Yanti sms dgn penuh kegembiraan dgtn thesis nya yg barangkali dh berubah ke arah positif sikit. Maybe dia terus berlari2 riang ke bank untuk byr. dlm 15 minit mcm tu terus bank in. OK alhamdulillah again..
Masuk bilik, dpt sms plk dr Pusat Tusyen Wassis. Sila dtg segera mengisi borang. Kami mengalu-alukan kedatangan cik..Ommo..yes yes!! seronoknya. This gonna be my FIRST organization that I gonna work with. Sekolah tu xkira..xsabar nak register esk. 4 days without reply, alih2 ada. sapa la yg send tu, encik or cik betul2 kacak n lawa di mata sy.sumpah!
Positive meter masih menyala2 bila Yanti contact lg. Kawan dia plk rs tercabar n nak jugak her writing to be proofread. n i said fine.Pukul 6 petang tu Ipi plk tanya free tak kalau ada org nk upah proofread..Rasa nak peluk jugak Ipi,, yeyyyyyy. Pukul 9 mlm td, I gave my 100 hasil proofreading yg pertama to my parents. In fact xkesah pon duit..hoho.amik la ma 50 n abah 50.nampak muka terharu/diorg. I slowly entered my room n dr dlm pon dgr lg ma plan nk beli apa with that money..mama tanya lg betul ke nk bg ni, your effort kot//n i shout dgn macho..amik la ma..it's fine.i believe this will generate more rezeki..gelak2 sikit.
Ok, sambung2 check thesis kawan Yanti sampai pkl 2, Jenuh gk nk handle thesis yg ni..tp terus jgk sbb da jnji ini malam juga akan submit. dkt nk tido tu dpt plk email dr tuition job. satu website yg sy rs 2% je possibility ada org nak cr tutot kelate..daerah pasir puteh yg terpencil plk tu.and I finally saw this "Akak cr tutor utk anak akak. Akak dr Wangsa Maju tapi akak nak puasa kat Gong Kulim Pasir Puteh sepanjang Ramadhan. Akak xnk pelajaran anak akak ni terabai..dia mix malay chinese scottish, Harap dpt mengajar 2-3 jam sehari" Ya Allah...xsgka ada..2-3 jam sehari..sepanjang Ramadhan. What else that I want? Definitely, it is going to be great..
1. Ini rezeki Ramadhan
2. Kena yakin dgn rezeki Allah
3. Buat apa-pun kena ikhlas
4. Lapangkanlah hati parents dengan semudah-mudah cara
With so much love and affection,
I love you Allah
Monday, July 8, 2013
Baitul rahmah
Ismi Ayuni, Taqo'u baity fil Injiliziyah fi syari' hadsun. Askunu fi hunaka ma'a sodiqati aqrobun min qalbi. Hunna Izati, Afiqah Wa viki. Nahdasu da'iman fi amam albabul bait. Uridu an azhabu ila baituna kathiran. Mumkin sa'azhabu ila hunaka marrotanni?
Rindunya 12 Hudson ^_^
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